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ANSWERING RAKARA'S QUESTIONS RE: ORIENTATION

2008-02-22T10:14:00.000-08:00

TREE OF LIFE

Greetings Rakara,

Thank you for the commitment to learn and grow. As I answer the questions you asked, I am saying to myself: "We are one -teacher and student". So I am learning from answering these questions, seen?

1. Is orientating just a matter of changing what I see, hear, taste, touch, smell, etc?

Actually, I say “yes”. Let me give you an example. You know the question, “Is the glass half empty or half full?” The reality of the glass experience is based on a person’s consciousness or purpose at the time. If I need to water ten houseplants or I am very thirsty, a “half-empty” glass is not enough. If I need to add a tablespoon of water to a recipe or wet the corner of a paper towel, a “half-full” glass is enough. So purpose has a lot to do with how one senses the universe.

Now let’s take another example. If I say, “wipe the kitchen floor”, you would get a broom and a mop. Now, if your perception of yourself is a “dog”, you would “lick” the floor. Your perception of self changed how you see, hear, taste, touch and smell – and therefore, how you behave.

Now here’s a third example. Let’s say you walk down the street and you see Mr. Jones old house is falling apart. Since you do not see Mr. Jones as yourself, you walk by and say, “Look at that. Poor Mr. Jones’ house is falling apart. That’s a shame. I wonder what he’s going to do?” However, if you see Mr. Jones as yourself, you walk by and say, “Damn! My house is falling down. I need to get some help and fix it up, otherwise I won’t have a house to live in!” and you get some people to help you fix it up. In the first case, seeing Mr. Jones as separate from yourself (Duality), it is not your responsibility to fix the house – that’s Mr. Jones’ problem, not yours. In the latter case, when you see Mr. Jones as yourself (Oneness), you take responsibility for fixing Mr. Jones/your house.

So this is why I say that orientating is a matter of changing what I see, hear, taste, touch and smell. However, changing how I sense the universe after a lifetime or even generations, of sensing the universe from the duality perspective is not just a matter of merely saying to oneself, “The universe is One”.

How does one go about orientating?

Let me use an external example first. If you are lost in a forest, how would you get out? If you called me on a cell phone and said, “I am lost, come and get me” I would say, “Where are you?” You would say, “I don’t know, I’m lost.” Then I would say, “I can’t come and get you if I don’t know where you are.”

So, not knowing where you are and how to get where you are going (“un-lost”), you don’t move. Not knowing where you are, I don’t move to come and get you, either.

So now you start looking around you. You see many trees. There is a mountain up ahead. Not far towards the direction of the sun is a stream. Observing these things, you start to calculate – I am facing the mountain. I can follow this stream and maybe it will lead me to a house or a road. YOU JUST ORIENTATED. You calculated your perceptions (mountain, stream, sun) and established where you are/a position based on external references. You then visualized where you wanted to go/your destination - a house or road. Once you knew where you were/your position, and where you were going/your destination, you had a purpose - to move following the stream in the direction of the mountain.

So you follow the stream and it leads you to a dirt road. Then you follow the dirt road and it leads you to an intersection that says, “Hope junction 3 miles”. You have no idea where Hope Junction is, but you walk the three miles and come to a gas station. The station manager pulls out a map and shows you were Hope Junction is – 15 miles South of Mt. Zion. So you call me and say, “I am at Hope Junction, 15 miles south of Mt. Zion off Route 66”. Now you know exactly where you are. Why? Because you have a map!

So from this external example, we see that ORIENTATING is a process that involves:

-looking around, perceiving, observing (sensing)
-adding to/subtracting from the perceptions (calculating)
- establishing a position, destination, and route (mapping)

Now let’s go to an internal example. If I ask, “where are you in consciousness?” or “Where are you spiritually?”, what do you answer? Can you give a point and exact answer such as “Hope Junction, 15 miles south of Mt. Zion off Route 66”? What is the “map of consciousness”?

Just as in the external example, to Orientate, one needs to look at, perceive, observe (sense) what is in/around one’s consciousness. However, if consciousness is “internal”, how do I perceive it?

To perceive one’s consciousness, look at the words one is using. The words are a projection of the concepts and images in one’s mind/consciousness.

Now calculate the words – what do I mean when I say, “ . . . . . “? What is the denotative definition of the word I am using? The denotative definition is the root or base meaning of the word. It is the essence or substance of the word. To find the denotative value of a word, write the substance and form of the word. For example, take the word “chair” The form of a chair is (generally), four legs, seat, back, arms. The substance of a chair is what it is used for: sitting, resting, supporting, standing, etc.

CHAIR
S: sitting, resting, supporting, standing, etc
F: four legs, seat, back, arms

A chair is an external object – you can see it, touch it, etc. Now let’s look at the word love. What is the substance and form of the word love?

LOVE
S: hugging, kissing, nurturing, caring, listening, nurturing, feeding, teaching, cherishing, devoting, protecting, etc
F: experience, people (husband, wives, family, children, friends), things (car, song, pet, events, ideas)

What does this tell us about our perception? Consider the Mr. Jones example above. I see the form of a chair as four legs, seat, back and arms. I do not see the form of the chair as Self. Likewise with love. I see multiple forms of love, not a single form which is Self. So whenever I am using words and the form of the words I am using is not “Self”, then I am seeing the world of external forms which is duality. Since there is multiple “distinct” forms, each form has a limit that separates one form from another. Whenever there is a limit, there is a beginning and an ending. And whenever there is a beginning and an ending, I am seeing the world from a finite perspective.

But how is the form of the word “chair” Self?

Let’s look at the word “Self”. When I ask people the question, “What is self? What is the form of self?”, they answer: “body, two legs, two arms, head, male, female, mind, spirit, consciousness, sum total of a person’s experiences, personality”, etc. Ask them how “self” got here, and they are forced to admit that they came from (their form is) their father and mother. Thus

SELF
S: living, breathing, working, loving, learning, etc. (infinite)
F: male/female = One

When I see you or Mr. Jones, I am seeing the unity of father (male) and mother (female). And since, I, too, am the unity of my father (male) and mother (female), when I see you or Mr. Jones, I am seeing a reflection of my Self = male and female united as One.

Now, “Before the chair (form) existed, it was designed (structured) based on a concept/thought (word(s)) that sprang from SELF having a purpose (will) - needing to sit elevated above the ground. So the chair (form) is an external reflection of SELF willing the CREATIVE process - will, word, structure, form.”

So substance vibrates form in the creative process. Thus, the form of a chair is the effect/result of someone’s consciousness which is the cause. And when I see someone, I see a reflection of Self. Thus, when I see a chair, I am seeing Self’s consciousness. Therefore,

CHAIR:
S: sitting, resting, reclining, supporting, standing, etc.
F: Self

Now I am seeing the world as a reflection of Self which is Oneness. When I do not see a separation of forms, there is no limit, there is no beginning or ending. When there is no beginning or ending, I am seeing the world from an infinite perspective of Self.

So now we can calculate – my consciousness is either finite/duality (external form), or it is infinite/oneness (internal substance).

Now, to know where I am in consciousness, I need a map. What is the map of consciousness? It is the TREE OF LIFE. (see image above).

At the top of the tree is the AUSAR level. It is the vibrational state of the Creator/Oneness where energy reflects absolute laws and principles that cause and effect.

At the bottom of the tree is the SAHU level. It is the vibrational state of Duality where energy is experienced as transitory sensations - emotions, desires, passions – which have a beginning and ending, and are thus finite. This vibrational state perceives absolute laws and principles only in the external form which it sees as multiplicity. Because of this, SAHU consciousness makes attachments (when there is only one form = Self there is nothing to attach to), and projects division which leads to conflict. Moving up the tree removes divisions and erases conflicts until at the top, there is only Oneness . . . .

With the map, I can find out where I am and where I am going (ORIENTATE). If I find I am experiencing conflict and I want a solution to the conflict, I need to move up the tree to wisdom and then to cause and effect. So I need to move from Duality to Oneness. How do I do this? I must take the definition of the words that I am using (that is revealing my consciousness in duality), and transition to an infinition that reflects absolute laws and principles and internalize the infinition in order to apply them. In doing so, I will change my reality by changing my perception of Self and projecting the Oneness (unifying) vibration that will effect/result in Self infinitely growing instead of the Duality vibration dividing and destroying self.

Now, let’s say I ask, “Where are you in spirituality?” and the person replies, “I believe in God”. We “believe” something when we think it is true but really don’t know (lack) the answer (understanding). We substitute belief for knowing and understanding.

BELIEVE
S: unknowing, considering, supposing, lacking
F: person, answer, knowledge, understanding

GOD
S: all-knowing, all-powering
F: spirit, Allah, Jehovah, etc.

So we can calculate that the person believes (doesn’t know) and is in SAHU. The person has a concept of “GOD”, that is not Self, thus “GOD” is outside of Self which implies Duality. Again, the person is in SAHU. Moreover, the person’s concept of GOD as all-knowing, all-powerful implies that it is finite. To know everything and to have all the power implies that it can be measured. To measure something, there must be a beginning and an end which are limits.

To Orientate, this person would have to make a definition to infinition transition of the words Believe and God. How does one make a definition to infinition transition?

First, look at the substance of the word and find out what substance(s) you are holding on to. Then ask yourself, “is this finite or infinite?” If you don’t know, ask yourself, “If all there is is Self (me), would/could I do this to myself? If I am infinite, does this make sense?”

Using the example of “believe” above, take the substance “lacking”. If all there is is me and I am infinite, can I lack anything? No. Can I not “know” myself or know something that is not “Self”? No.

Next, look at nature for an example/manifestation of absolute laws and principles. Does a tree “believe” in God? No. A tree grows. When it rains, its roots drink in the water. When the wind blows, its roots hold it in place while its branches and leaves sway. The tree just does its purpose and grows.

Instead of believing in God, this person needs to be One with the tree – know its purpose and grow. Now the person knows his/her absolute Orientation. S/he has the map (Tree of Life), knows her/his location (in SAHU, Duality), knows where s/he is going (Knowledge of Self/AB Maat to AUSAR, Oneness) and what to do (stop believing in God and know my purpose and grow).

So, ORIENTATION is

Mapping where you are and where you are going,
By calculating
Your perception

ABSOLUTE ORIENTATION is

Mapping where you are and where you are going on the Tree of Life
By calculating whether
Your perception of Self is external/finite/Duality or internal/infinite/Oneness

2. When should a person orientate? Is this an ongoing thing, or something to do when you experience a bad moment?

That is based on a person’s purpose. If my purpose is to grow and to infinitely involve, then I am going to Orientate (to the Oneness) infinitely. If I don’t, then I am in Duality, and if I am in Duality, my perception of my Self is that I have a beginning and an ending. If I have an ending, then I am vibrating my own death . . . . Once a person is introduced/intuned to Orientation, it is their choice – infinite involution or death.

Here’s an example – let’s say you are at the supermarket and you are not Orientating to the Oneness – you don’t know where you are on the Tree of Life, where you are going, and what steps to take, or how to move. So, instead of orientating to the Ausar/Oneness perception, you submit to the SAHU/ duality consciousness that is ruled by emotions, passions, desires. So now, these emotions, passions and desires which are manipulated by advertising, are telling you to get a six pack of beer, a pizza, some chips or pretzels, and some ice cream – all of which was created (like the chair) from your SAHU consciousness which can only divide and destroy you. So you choose food that kills you unconscious of your absolute purpose to grow. Now, SAHU consciousness, not seeing the Oneness, sees only the form separated – “I’m just shopping, I’m just eating” or worse, “Everyone must die anyway, so why not satisfy my sensations?” Did something bad happen? No, not yet. However, keep seeing thinking and vibrating at the SAHU level and something bad will eventually take “form” – some sickness, illness, conflict, etc. If you wait until diabetes, a stroke, a heart attack, etc to Orientate, by then absolute laws and principles are already manifesting, and it’s too late. So why wait until something bad happens? When you Orientate, you in/experience the world from the Ausar/creator realm. And when you know yourself as the creator creating your experiences, you wouldn’t create the bad moment, would you? You only create the bad moment because you are not Orientated . . . . .

3. What measurements should one use to know they are making progress? I suspect orientation is not just about ‘feeling’ better. What should a person use as their guide?

That is a functional question! There are steps that correspond to each of the nine spheres on the Tree of Life. One progresses by moving from one step to the next. Ausar Lumukanda Maguzawa revealed to me nine steps to Sphere #4 AB Maat. I am on Step #5.

NINE STEPS TO AB MAAT

Step 9: To understand patience, you must accept your mission as ABSOLUTE (Sphere #4)

Step 8: To understand Wisdom, you must take absolute responsibility for your actions (Sphere #4)

Step 7: In order to take full responsibility for your actions, you must KNOW YOURSELF (Sphere #4)

Step 6: In order to KNOW YOURSELF you must DENY YOURSELF (Sphere #4, #6)

Step 5: To DENY YOURSELF you must master your lower triangle (SAHU) of your psyche (Sphere #6)

Step 4: To master your lower triangle of your psyche you must SUBSCRIBE AND BROADCAST your ABSOLUTE INTENTIONS (Spheres #6, #7)

Step 3: In order to SUBSCRIBE and BROADCAST to your ABSOLUTE INTENTIONS you must align your physical interfaces into "one" healthy SYSTEM (Sphere #7)

Step 2: In order to align your PHYSICAL INTERFACES into "one" healthy SYSTEM, you must control the physical inputs as to LIFENOSE the physical ailment (Sphere #7)

THEREFORE THE PATHWAY TOWARDS HIGHER SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT STARTS WITH NUTRITION (Spheres #, #8, #9)

What would you recommend for someone who is new to the orientation thing?

Apply, apply, apply . . . . Look at the words you are using and see if they are reflecting duality or oneness. And of course, ask questions on the AWI blogsite!

HOW DO YOU SEE/EXPERIENCE REALITY?

2008-02-19T06:42:00.001-08:00

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ORIENTATION is a process of transforming consciousness from seeing the world of forms, structures and duality definitions to knowing self and in/experiencing the world as ONE reflection of SELF/CREATOR.

Look at a chair. It is a reflection of SELF/CREATOR. Before the chair (form) existed, it was designed (structured) based on a concept/thought (word(s)) that sprang from SELF having a purpose (will) - needing to sit elevated above the ground. So the chair (form) is an external reflection of SELF willing the CREATIVE process - will, word, structure, form.

Likewise, YOU the reader, are the chair. YOU are a reflection of the CREATOR. YOU ARE THE CREATOR. Take for example, your body. Your flesh, your bones, your blood- it is made of the same "ingredients" as the earth. That is why we eat - we metabolize the substance of the earth to grow.

Now, your body, just as the earth, was fluid before it manifested as earth. You were formed in/from fluids in your Mama's womb. Your body's organs, blood, etc is mostly water, just as the earth is mostly water.

Now, the process of forming you (form) in the mother's womb (structure) could not take place if Mama wasn't breathing air (word). Moreover, if you weren't breathing, would there be a you?

And of course, even if you had air (word), water (structure) and earth (form), without the fire within the body, you still wouldn't be you. When your temperature (fire) drops below a certain level, the body "freezes" and it's systems shut down. On the other hand, if the temperature (fire) gets to high, the body burns and it's systems don't function.

Therefore, YOU are a reflection of the creative process - will (fire), word (air), structure (water) and form (earth). Now ask yourself - does fire have a birthdate? When was air born? How old is water? As an Aboriginal, you are the reflection of the creative process. Thus, Aboriginal people are infinite - they have no beginning nor ending. Aboriginal people have always been here and will always be here.

Now, will (fire), word (air), structure (water) and form (earth) are vibrational states of one energy which is the Creator. Look at fire and water - fire is hot, air is cool. Look at water and earth. Water is soft, earth is hard. Hot and cold are vibrational states of one energy. Soft and hard are vibrational states of one energy. Heat and cold, hard and soft, male and female - all so called "opposites" are only vibrational states of one energy.

Think about when you are hungry, when you are sleepy, when you are awake, etc. Are you three separate objects? No, YOU are one object/energy vibrating in three different vibrational states.

So YOU - your body/form - is a manifestation of the creative process. It is the external form of the internal consciousness of the Creator and it is infinite. YOU are also a reflection of the Oneness of so-called "opposites". You wouldn't be here were it not for your father and mother, male and female. So when I see you, I am seeing the unity of male and female.

Now, look at nature. A cloud passes, it rains. Some of the rain is stored in puddles, pools, lakes, seas, etc. Some of the rain is absorbed by the earth. Plants drink the rain through its roots and use it to grow. The rain is then evaporated from the puddles, pools, plants, etc and it rises and forms clouds and then goes through the process again, over and over. Absorbing and projecting.

Look a tree. It produces a fruit containing a seed which drops to the ground and is absorbed. The seed absorbs water and earth and grows (projects) itself, producing more fruit with seed, repeating the process, again and again. So each tree is just an infinite reflection/reproduction of one energy that is infinitely absorbing and projecting.

Now look at YOU. Your heart and muscles expand and contract. You inhale and exhale. Your mouth opens and closes. You drink and urinate. You eat and defecate. You hear words then you speak words. YOU become one with your male/female reflection and reproduce a child that will go through the same process, infinitely reproducing - SELF.

Thus, YOU are an infinite reflection of SELF/CREATOR infinitely absorbing and projecting. Whaterever you see, hear, taste, touch, smell - is YOU. YOU are absorbing what YOU are projecting. See this, knowing this, experiencing this, is ORIENTATION.

The question is: How does SELF ORIENTATE? What are the steps? What is reality like when I see behind the form and structure to the will and word that Unites the Universe?

Question RE: Substance and Form

2008-02-11T15:49:00.000-08:00

Greetings AWI Family,

I received the following question form a Reflection and below is my answer.

I understand substance and form when you are dealing with tangible objects such as mop (s;washing, waxing, dusting, hitting, -- f: stick, handle, sponge, etc), but how is this method applied to intangible things? Is Substance (thoughts/thinking) and Form (feelings/actions)?for example --

Rushed:
(substance): last minute, not enough time, need to catch up, not where supposed to be, missing out if late, etc --
(form): fast movement, hurried actions, missed steps, anxiety

This is the method I am currently using. Please let me know if I'm doing this right.

Take care, . . . . .

Answer:

Yes, you have the substance and form of external words like mop. When you qualify an intangible or what we call an INTERNAL word, we use the same format. Take love for example. SAHU reflections will answer the question according to their level of consciousness which is in Duality. Thus it will be based on an accepted definition.

LOVE:
s:hugging, kissing, caring, nurturing, feeding, listening, talking, considering, sexing, devoting, teaching, fighting, cooking, reproducing, etc
f: self, husband, wife, mother, father, car, song, book, vacation spot, meal, sex, etc

The form is who or what is doing and/or receiving the action. The substance of an internal word is an action verb ending in "ing". It is the function of the word, or put another way, what the word causes you to do. Love causes me to hug and kiss, and listen . . . . etc. So if we look at the word "rush"

RUSH:
s:quickening, accelerating, overlooking,
f: person, process

Let's try another word - "NEED"

NEED
s:requiring, necessitating, projecting
f: person, concept

and

GROW
s:functioning, learning, substantiating
f: objects

Understand? Does this help?
Siphiwe

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2008-02-08T12:56:00.000-08:00

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CHAMPION TEST & RESPONSIBILITY

2008-02-07T15:26:00.000-08:00

Greetings AWI Family,

I have been absorbing and projecting lessons about what it takes to be a champion and responsibility. Yesterday I was tested.

I had to pack, move and clean a 3rd floor apartment by myself. It was a mess - clothes, papers, cd's and dvd's everywhere, dishes left out with food rotting on them - it was disgusting. Bathroom was worse. So I went to start in the bedroom.

I wasn't Orientated when I started - my consciousness was that this was a task/job that I wanted to just finish as quickly as possible, know what I mean? As I rushed to stuff clothers in bags, I thought of the gigantic mess I had yet to pack and having to move everything three florrs to the basement, and all the cleaning. I was QUANTIFYING what I was experienceing/facing. Then I heard the Ancestors say, "WHAT ELSE DO YOU HAVE TO DO. YOU HAVE WHAT YOU NEED, THERE'S NO WHERE YOU HAVE TO GO, THIS IS YOUR LESSON. SUBMIT!"

So I submitted. No longer rushing or looking to the work ahead, I start moving, step by step. The work started flowing . . . .

As I continued to work, however, I thought, "This is going to take awhile. I can't do it all by myself TODAY. I'll pack and move everything today and do the cleaning tomorrow before its time to show the apartment. That's good enough - after all, I have to carry all this stuff myself and its HEAVY (see substance and form below).

Then I heard the Ancestors say, "BE A CHAMPION, DON'T QUIT UNTIL APARTMENT IS SPARKLING. "

So instead of quitting in the afternoon, I submitted and accepted my purpose. Once I did this, I started Orientating and Introspecting. How did I create this experience? The tenant who left the apartment is a reflection of mySelf. Why did I leave like this?

I thought about how my reflection arrived at AWI. After being evicted my reflection made a sincere cry to the universe for help. Now my reflection was in the same situation, needing to find another place to live quickly. The same lesson again. Obviously my reflection did not see the substance of his in/experience and what he was projecting that created it. However, since this experience was just a reflection of Self, it was my lesson. What substance of my in/experience am I not seeing? What am I projecting that will push me away from AWI? This question bothered me . . . . I have been repeating lessons, too, only I know the substance of why I am here (to grow), but I keep looking at form of being here and using my quantifying mechanism instead of using my absolute, innate learning mechanisms. I need to stop doing this and keep applying absolute learning (more on that later). Introspecting on this, I started to feel a tightness in my chest.

So while I was working, SAHU sensations tried to get me to contract. Porno dvd covers tried to get me . . . .I took responsibility for my VISUAL NUTRITION INPUT and said, "No thank you!" and put them in a pile without indulging.

Working alone caused me to reflect on previous apartments I had, which in turn caused me to think about the relationships I had in them. I started to feel a little lonely but I recognized that contract and quickly Orientated - no way was I gonna lower my vibration from champion to loser! However, accepting where I was/season of growth, I had to accept vulnerability - and this caused my chest to feel "tight" - like I had a lump in my throat, only a little lower in my upper chest. It makes my voice "shaky" when I talk. I've been experiencing this more frequently over the past few weeks. I am "sensing" something and I know it is because I am not BROADCASTING.

By 5:00 pm - seven hours after I started - I had made the apartment sparkle. I had passed my CHAMPION test, and already the universe was pushing the next test. What was/is this causing my tight chest? What do I need to broadcast?

It came out later speaking to another reflection: I AM SICK AND TIRED OF IN/EXPERIENCING THE WORLD AS A BOY! NOW IS THE SEASON FOR MANHOOD AND RESPONSIBILITY!

HEAVY
substance: weighing
form: object(s)

WEIGHING
s: measuring
f: object, concept

MEASURING
s: comparing
f: object, concept 1 (object), concept 2 (accepted standard)

COMPARING
s: perceiving
f: object, concept

PERCEIVING
s: projecting
f: concept

PROJECTING
s: activating
f: concept

ACTIVATING
s: sensing
f: object(person)

TAKING RESPONSIBILITY

2008-02-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

Greetings AWI Family,

I am absorbing and projecting the lesson: "take responsibility". I know that words project substance that create our experiences, whether we are conscious of that substance or not. So I must be conscious of the substance of the lesson I am projecting. I must have substantial knowledge of responsibility, otherwise I won't recognize the lesson when I absorb it, and I will keep repeating it.

What is responsibility? Here is my definition:

RESPONSIBLE: performing functionally according to absolute purpose; recognizing when something is needed and what is needed and following the steps to acquire and apply what is needed so that the condition of need no longer exists.

Before matriculating to AWI, my definition was what I accepted from the dictionary:
expected or obliged to account; answerable, accountable; involving obligation or duties; able to distinguish between right and wrong and to think and to act rationally; dependable and reliable.

I was raised to accept the Christian concepts of right and wrong, and experience of my accepted definition of right and wrong (rewards and opportunities for acting "right"; punishment and suffering for acting "wrong") caused me to act "right". You know, the Ten Commandments - don't lie, cheat, steal, covet thy neighbors wife - those are the "biggies". Don't hurt people or animals, and help people when you can (when it is convenient). So in this sense, I felt I was acting responsibly.

However, like most people, I found that accepting obligation or duties was not fun. Obligation and duties require work. Who wants to work? Especially melaninated beings in the west - after the slavery experience of being worked from sun up to sun down without pay and still living in a system where most of us work for the mankind beast to pay rent and put food on the table - who really wants to be responsible? Many people are forced to be responsible, but who really wants to be responsible?

In childhood, sometimes I was told to wash dishes, especially after they had been sitting in the sink for awhile and the water in the sink was nasty. I didn't have fun washing dishes, and if I left a piece of food on a plate, or there was a Kool-aid stain still in a cup, I would get yelled at. It was my responsibility to take out the stinking garbage, too! It smelled bad and it was heavy, and during the winter, I had to go out in the cold. I always got yelled at to take out the garbage! On Saturday mornings, I was forced to do chores before going outside to play - vacuum, clean my room, wash clothes, clean bird cage, clean dog shit in utility room, etc. At other times, my parents or teachers would say, "Who did this?" when something was broken. Whoever was "responsible" for breaking the object or doing something that upset the grown-ups would get punished. I was never nurtured to learn how to fix what was broken, either. So from childhood I learned that being responsible obligated you to do work that nobody else wanted to do, was no fun, was stinky and nasty, and would get you in trouble and yelled at if you made a mistake. So like most people, when it came to this kind of responsibility, I avoided it whenever possible. (While picking up trash on the sidewalk and sweeping hallways today, I considered most of the urban areas where I have lived with "my people" - garbage in the streets, stinky, nasty homes that are falling apart and need to be fixed, no parks or places for children to have fun, nobody wanting to take responsibility. . . .)

So when I entered adulthood, I was projecting Christian moral responsibility and avoiding obligation/duty/work responsiblity - and I was drawn to the Rastafari Movement. "The mankind beast system is falling and is going to be replaced by a new system, so get out of it before it is completely burned by fire, no need to work in it or learn it, and we are going to leave the west and return to Mama Africa as prophets, priests and kings (and not industrial engineers and manufacturers) anyway, so what's the point of doing anything here only to leave it to be destroyed? I'll be responsible for learning and building after I repatriate. My only responsibility was leaving the west", so I thought. Anyway, that's another story . . . . .

Now, however, the ancestors are showing me, I must TAKE RESPONSIBILITY AND SUBMIT TO MY ABSOLUTE PURPOSE IN ORDER TO ACTIVATE THE HEART OF MY ANCESTRAL CHAMPIONS INSIDE ME!

Take responsibility for what? What is responsibility? Here's an absolute example:

No one teaches a baby after it leaves the womb how to cry out for its mother's breast and suck . . . . The ancestral knowledge in the baby's genetic memory was activated by the baby's senses . . . . which communicated internally with Self, "I need". This need became the baby's will/purpose which, just as it was communicated internally, had to be communicated externally. So the ancestral knowledge, when activated, caused an internal movement of the will which in turn caused the baby to use its muscles (internal) to move - in this case, its vocal cords. This internal movement created a word- sound that caused an external movement, which was a vibration that carried the substance of the ancestral knowledge in the baby's genetic memory. The vibration was heard by Mama and absorbed, activating the same ancestral knowledge inside of her that she passed to her baby in the womb, which in turn caused an internal movement of the will that further caused Mama to use her muscles (internal) to move - in this case, her leg muscles. Mama's internal movement created an external movement, which brought her to nurse the baby.

So automatically, baby and mother communicated the substance of the ancestral knowledge of what they need to do (to grow), and that knowledge was substantiated when the baby felt the nipple, sucked it, and tasted milk. The baby was being responsible when it projected, in the form of crying, the ancestal knowledge that was activated internally when the baby's senses absorbed where it was. Likewise, Mama was responsible when, after she heard her baby crying and absorbed the substance of the ancestral knowledge that was projected and was now activated internally, submitted and nursed the baby. Both automatically knew their purpose and what to do.

Unlike a baby, however, an adult has this thing called "freewill". An adult has accepted and stored concepts that are not absolute and override the anestral knowledge that is communicated within.

For example, Self senses/observes smoking cigarettes. Self smells the cigarette (it smells bad), Self mimics smoking and inhales/absorbs cigarette, and Self starts coughing (ancestral knowledge projection: get this shit out of Self)! Self learned not to inhale cigarette smoke. However, Self accepted a concept that smoking is "cool", smoking is "fun". Smoking gets you accepted (peer pressure). So Self uses freewill to override Self's absolute learning/purpose and makes smoking into a habit. Then one day, all the smoke Self absorbed is projected as lung cancer. Just as the ancestral knowledge said, "get this smoke out of me", now the ancestral knowledge is saying, "get this smoke that is now in the form of a tumor our of me!" Just as Self submitted to freewill to override absolute learning/purpose when it first inhaled, Self might submit to freewill and keep smoking even after getting lung cancer, too!

Was Self responsible? No. Why? Because Self did not submit and perform the ancestral knowledge that was projected.

So what is responsibility? At AWI, I learned that every word is a "capacitor" with a substance and form. For example, look at the word "chair". The form of a chair is : four legs, a seat, a back, arm rests, etc. The substance of a chair is its purpose/function - what it is used for: sitting, resting, reclining, standing, supporting, etc. So now, to know what responsibility is, I need to know its substance and form. From the baby/Mama example above:

Responsibility:
substance: knowing, doing (performing)
form: baby, mama (objects), ancestral knowledge, actions (concepts)

Perfoming:
substance: following
form: object, steps (concepts)

So responsibility is using the senses to absorb substance and activate ancestral knowledge within Self's genetic memory which projects a response. This is how I learm/know what needs to be done . When Self applies that knowledge by moving/performing/following the step(s) of what to do, then Self is acting responsibly.

There's a little more to this lesson, however. There are times when my freewill wants to submit to the ancestral knowledge that is projected, and yet I still don't. For example, I might see/absorb that power keeps going out in my house, and ancestral knowledge projects that I need to fix it. My freewill wants to get it fixed, too. However, I don't get it fixed. Why? What stops me?

I know it needs to be fixed, but I don't know how to fix it. Moreover, I have accepted the concept that electricity is "dangerous". I remember being shocked. I also remember stories and movies of people being electrocuted. So now, the thought of looking at and observing the electrical system in my house causes me "fear" of being shocked or electricuted. Or, maybe I am not afraid of being electricuted, but I am afraid of failing to do it "right" and burning down my house. In either case, fear has stopped me from fixing it. (Fear of failure is major reason why I avoid responsibility.)

Let's say, however, that I do know how to fix it, but with working two jobs, I just don't feel like using my weekends to work on fixing my electrical system. Afterall, all work and know rest/relaxation, is not healthy, either. Moreover, the children have their weekend activities that require my attention; the wife wants some attention, too. In this case, entropy and energy are the culprits stopping me. There are just too many things that demand my attention and I don't have the energy to do them all.

So why not just hire an electrician? That is a solution if I can afford it. If the job is going to cost $8,000 and I don't have it, then that means having to work a lot of over-time. Again, entropy and energy are the culprits stopping me.

So now the question is, take responsibility for what? Answer: Self

When I Orientate, I see and understand the Oneness. There is only Self. And Self's purpose is infinite involution - to grow. I am infinitely absorbing and projecting, so the substance of what I am projecting is what I am absorbing through my senses and it is based on my perception of self. If I see garbage in the street around me, it is because I am projecting garbage. If my perception of self is Duality, then it is someone else's responsibility to pick it up (whoever put it there or the city, etc.) If my perception of Self is Oneness, then it is Self's responsibility. If I don't care (take responsibility), that is because I don't care (take responsibility) about myself. Since, however, I am an aboriginal being, I share in the three attributes of the absolute: responsibility, openeness, and reproducibility. I can't run from responsibility because it is in my genetic memory. If I don't care about myself and take responsibility, I am projecting lessons to teach me to take responsibility. The universe will continue to "force" me into taking responsibility by taking from me what I am not being responsible for (neglecting, not observing), until I submit to my absolute purpose. So, by making it my purpose to observe what is around me, and knowing who I am, ancestral knowledge will project to me what needs to be done. When it is done, the lesson is learned and the wisdom is gained, so I no longer project and absorb that lesson, but rather that wisdom. Self becomes "lighter". In this way, I raise my vibration and I grow.

So this is where I am at - Orientating and understanding the substance of responsibility and what prevents me from taking responsibility.

I welcome comments from my reflections so that I can learn and grow.

INFINITE NEED FOR MOTHERS, DAUGHTERS, SISTERS, AND WIVES

2008-01-15T05:11:00.000-08:00

Greetings AWI Family,

Yesterday, I spoke with my mother. She was talking about "when she dies . . . . . at my funeral . . . . " I said to myself, I am absorbing this because I am projecting it, and I asked myself, "Why am I projecting this? What is my lesson?" The day before, I told a Divine Priest and Healer that I was afraid, that something was holding me back from knowing myself and doing my purpose/mission in life. . . . How was this connected?

So I answered my mother saying that her body was only physical form, that "she" however was, is, and will always be an invisible "substance" that is infinitely manifesting/creating form after form after form. I used the example of a mango tree to show her that the mango that falls to the ground (funeral) does so only to release its seed and grow into another involution producing another mango tree and another mango (form) and that this process is infinite. So I showed her that at her so called "funeral", she won't be "dead" as in no longer with me - her substance is infinite. She is only changing forms! Since I know this - that she was, is and always will be "with me", I won't "miss" her and there is no need for me to be "sad" at her "funeral".

So this morning during "Affirmations", I said to myself, "I am infinite" and I saw the Tree of Life and that my Duality image of Self as an "Individual" in this body is just form - it passes just as the mango disintegrates. It is the seed in the mango that when planted, manifests the infinite involution of the substance of the mango tree. I am the substance of the Creator manifested through involutions of Ancestors . . . . That substance in me produces seed which must be planted (male and female = ONE). With knowledge of self, this seed, and a wife, I infinitely involve! This is my purpose, PLANT MY SEED (male and female = ONE) TO INFINITELY INVOLVE. THIS IS WHY I NEED A WIFE(S) TO REPRODUCE AND RAISE CHILDREN. THE AUSAR ANCESTORS (SELF) WILL GUIDE ME WHEN I AM OPEN AND SUBMIT!

I KNOW MY WIFE(S) IS PREPARING AT THIS VERY MOMENT AND WE WILL COME TOGETHER IN SEASON.

And I also see now that mothers, daughters, sisters, wives - women - are not burdens, enemies, and objects. My daughter is Self and she will grow into a woman and become a wife so that Self can reproduce and infintely involve. So this is why I love, feed, nurture and protect my daughter! She is Self. She is what I need for Divine Creation!

WHAT IS YOUR ARCHETYPE OF SELF?

2007-12-31T20:45:00.000-08:00

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THE PURPOSE OF ORIENTATION IS TO CHANGE MY ARCHETYPE OF SELF FROM DUALITY TO ONENESS.

INTROSPECTION ON WHAT IS ORIENTATION

2007-12-24T07:35:00.000-08:00

ORIENTATION IS MOVING FROM "SEED CONSCIOUSNESS" TO "TREE CONSCIOUSNESS" WHILE ACCEPTING THAT YOU ARE A SEED GROWING INTO A TREE.

ORIENTATION IS MOVING FROM "CHILDHOOD CONSCIOUSNESS" TO "VILLAGE CONSCIOUSNESS" WHILE ACCEPTING THAT YOU ARE A CHILD GROWING INTO A VILLAGE.

ORIENTATION IS MOVING FROM "SAHU CONSCIOUSNESS/SPIRITUAL CHILDHOOD" THAT OPERATES IN THE LOVE, LEGAL, AND FORCE PLATFORMS TO "AUSAR CONSCIOUSNESS" THAT, AS THE CREATOR, INSPERIENCES/EXPERIENCES INFINITE ONENESS AND OPERATES IN THE ABSOLUTE PLATFORM, WHILE ACCEPTING THAT YOU ARE IN SAHU/SPIRITUAL CHILDHOOD GROWING INTO AUSAR CONSCIOUSNESS/SPIRITUAL ONENESS.

How can I expect Support when I've yet to master the Resistance?

2007-12-11T16:04:00.001-08:00

Reflections:

I'm at a state of consciousness that I learning how to intuit instead of think. Sounds like .....(he's off his rocka...right), but in absoluteness I'm leaving the thinking realm and going into the intuit realm..................WOW! It started when I broadcasted to the Universe on how to organize my life in an efficient manner without using the mastered system of procedural thinking. Procedural thinking is what programming languages are derived from. For example, when constructing a software application using a procedural language such as C, Cobol, or Paschal you have three substantial ways to write your program logic and the ways are: 1.) sequence (line by line code), iteration (code read from within a loop ( count from 1 to 100 ) ), and conditional (logical parameters: if ( Friday ) then ( Jumu'ah ) ). So when I reached the limits of procedural thinking I began to broadcast to the Universe for the next infinite lesson, and the Universe gave me the first step towards my request. The lesson on this blog-message is that we must be intune to what we broadcast to the Universe, because the Universe is infinitely involving while never sleeping, so our requests are being answered infinitely. So now the question is....does the universe answer thoughts or intuits? Leave your comments if you would like to know more. No need to expound if no reflections are interested.

I LOVE MYSELF.

The Orientation of Attachment and Detachment

2007-12-09T09:08:00.000-08:00

Last night before and after I absorbed and projected with self, I noticed I did not want to be around self. I was feeling irritated by self and wanted to leave the house to go for a walk. I looked at the word that came to my mind which was detachment. My work at orientating the attachment I have brought a mechanism to the surface that I used as my idea of being a non-attachment. When I did the definition to infinitions transition I could see I was in duality.

attachment- substance: holding, bonding, connecting, joining, altering
form: things, people, ideas

detachment- substance: uninvolving, defending, protecting
form: body, fort, emotions, person

I ask myself, can I: hold myself, bond to myself, connect to myself, join myself, alter myself, not be involved with myself, defend myself, protect myself? The answer to all of these are no. When orientated, I know that I am what I see. There is nothing outside of self, even the word (outside), doesn’t exist in the one-ness, because the one-ness is infinite. The thought of having to protect, defend, not be involved, hold, bond, connect, join, alter means that I don’t know that I am the creating what I am absorbing and projecting. Thinking I can do these things means I don’t understand, that I caused a motion to take place in the universe, which raised my vibration to project energy, and the product I absorb, is what I need to submit to my absolute purpose. So, me thinking I can have an attachment or become detached will keep my thoughts and actions limited for fear of jeopardizing that which I am attached to or detached from. This thinking is in duality. So, I must create a word that will replace them that is a one-ness word.

non-attachment- substance: knowing, applying, innerstanding, being
form: self

The key to non-attachment is orientation. Knowing I am what I see will allow me move with purpose, as I see my reflections as what I need to grow. Because when a being has absolute innerstanding of reality, the one-ness, attachment ceases to exist. Non-attachment is the state of being that involves innerstanding of knowing at the absolute. It is knowing, in application, not in theory, that will allow for pure non-attachment.

I am excited about where I am. With the work I have been projecting on attachment I am able to absorb my product of detachment. I have identified the mechanism, and now it is a matter of applying the orientation of the concept I have just identified I was holding on to. So again, my focus remains on orientation, and I am looking forward to the absorbtion of my projection I just created. I submit to the lessons. I love myself!

ORIENTATING: WORK DEPRESSION TO GROWING

2007-12-07T07:02:00.000-08:00

LEARNING: being one with nature, observing nature and how nature manages her infinite systems.

"Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every WORD that proceed

out of the mouth of the Creator."

ORIENTATING THIS MORNING:

1. Where am I in consciousness? Woke up this morning feeling "depressed"; had a lot of "work" to do that I wasn't looking forward to doing. This is NFCD.

2. Identify/ recognize Duality/Finite concepts and language: work and depressed

3. Qualify words that led you into duality
a) write down (de)-finitions of the words you are using to find (de)notative value
b) write down substance (action verbs ending in "ing") and form (nouns/or things doing or receiving the actions) - anything with multiple forms is DIVISION

External example:

car: vehicle that uses wheels, engine and other systems, and fuel to move from one place to another
s: moving, travelling, carrying, transporting, storing, protecting, sheltering
f: frame, wheels, engine, seats, steering wheel, trunk, transmission, muffler, brakes
process: what are the systems of the substances; how does car move? ignition system, fuel system, transmission system, etc.; how does the car protect? frame, brakes, doors, windows, air bag, locks, etc.

Internal example:

work: activities that must be done; things that must be done in order to be productive, make a living; physical or mental effort exerted to do or make something; purposeful activity; labor; toil; something one is doing, making or acting upon
s: acting, doing, exerting, laboring, toiling
f: self, nature, machines

depressed: feeling lousy, lowered in position, intensity, amount, or degree; pressed down; gloomy, dejected, sad; characterized by widespread unemployment, poverty, lack of opportunity,
s: feeling, lowering, dejecting, saddening, decreasing
f:self, society

4. Write down substance and form of de-notative value of de-finition to see what is the finite substance of the words you are using that is keeping you trapped in Duality/NFCD

I am holding on to the substance of laboring and toiling when it comes to work.

labor: Latin: harship, pain; physical or mental exertion; work, toil; to move slowly and with difficulty; to be afflicted or burdened with a liability or limitation; too spend too much time and effort on;
s: exerting, afflicting, burdening, limiting, slowing

toil: advance or move with painful effort or difficulty; hard, exhausting work or effort; tiring labor
s: exhausting, tiring

sad: low spirits, sorrow; unhappy
s: depressing, diappointing, lowering, decreasing

5. Translate to INFINITION based on Absolute Laws and Principles of UNIVERSE=NATURE=ENERGY=SELF=Male/Female Now one is ready for LEARNING.

definition to infinition transition: Yes. I can take action, do something energetically (exert) . . . . Consider the wind. Sometimes it is breezy, soft, slight. Sometimes it is vigorous, gusty, etc. . . . When it is the season for storm, tornado, hurricane, etc, the wind doesn't avoid . . . . it does its purpose. It blows according to its current "consciousness" and its need. Consider a seed. It doesn't avoid breaking the shell, putting out the tap root, popping thorugh the soil, growing stem, leaves, branches, etc becaue it is "a lot of work". It continuously 'works' or grows according to what it needs. It doesn't "work" on making fruit when it is just a tap root. It works on what it needs based on where its current stage of invelopment or "consciousness". It does not become "depressed" or "unhappy" because it is going to take a lot of work before it can "make fruit". It submits to where it is and simply "works" or "grows".

Where am I with working: I am doing things (working) consciously and unconsciously, either building up or breaking down; My "will" to work/build up is not strong enough: I am not taking initiative (taking action) to do things which I know need to be done when I don't know how to do them, and avoiding work that I do know how to do, expecting or waiting for someone else (who knows better) to do them. I am not broadcasting ("word") that I need to know how to do things or what I need to do things. The result is that there is no structure or form i.e no work gets done. I also give myself credit, looking down the road at "form" of what I want, then seeing how much "work" it takes to get there, seeing what I don't "have", then feeling overwhelmed or depressed - i.e. I lowered myself by comparing what/where I projected myself to be with where I am. Now, instead of seeing myself as where I need to be and growing, I see myself as "less than" - hence I feel "saddened" and "depressed".

Steps: Need to strengthen my will to work/build up. How do I do that? Change from "work - laboring and toiling" to "grow"! See that what needs to be done around me is not "labor and toil" but rather "growth" - what I need. What is around me is me, what needs to be done "around me" is what needs to be done "to me"; what I need. There is plenty of opportunity around me to grow! Stop giving myself credit and projecting myself into where I am not, so as to stop comparing myself to where I am not and "lessening/depressing" myself where I am. Accept that where I am is where I need to be in order to grow and use the opportunities that are around me. This is SUBMITTING. See that what is around me is "me". Know that by accepting responsibility for what I see and "working" on it, I am building up/growing. In this way, instead of lowering/catabolizing myself into depression, I build/anabolize myself into infinite growth.

Out of Oneness comes a Negro

2007-12-05T12:07:00.000-08:00

The substance of a negro is deep rooted and easy to get caught up in. I myself have inspirienced the negro to much in one day. I started out talking with myself and getting upset because I wasn't saying what I wanted to "hear." I wasn't listening, I was blinded by attachment, my defense mechanism had me by the throat and I was drowning in duality. When I broadcasted to myself, I was able to orientate, and see the deeply rooted duality in me that was endoctrinated though the concepts of Christianity, Capitolism, wholeness, and mathematics.

But as if that wasn't enough to orientate to get into learning and introspect on, I found myself displaying another negro substances, that resulted in embarrassment and shame. As I was looking for a way to not be responsible for my actions, a major process of a negro, I popped into orientation during this display of substance, I saw how I was projecting negrodom.

I had to laugh. I was trying to hide, lie and decieve myself. I called into fruition the lesson of knowing the substance of a negro substantially not in form. We low and behold the substance of a negro has been right above my nose, in my head, all the while. I kept expecting to see it in my reflections not myself. Duality? Yes. How is that, when there is nothing other than myself. I am the infinite.

So, I have been on a negro rollercoster ride observing the following substances of a negro: the dialog in my head, go back and forth on how I'm being treated wrong, reasoning why I shouldn't be doing what I should be doing/and why I should be doing what I shouldn't be doing, expecting accolades for the work I've been doing with no open mindedness to be pushed higher, expecting to get away with things unsee and unheard, thinking I won't be found out, fronting like everything is fine, when in all actuallity I am catabolizing, and afraid to ask for help, for fear of shattering my image, looking for someone to tell me what to do, as not to take responsiblity if something goes wrong, worring about what my reflections are doing because I am attached and don't want to exposed how attached I really am.

I must stay aware that I am projecting my lessons, absorb them orientate, get into learning, and go through introspection in the one-ness. This will make me less fearful of the products I create. So, my focus will continue to be on, orientation. In order to come out of the negro trans/mindset I do know that I must stay in the one-ness. That way, I will be able to learn and grown without the affects of duality haunting me when I receive my product.

Aboriginal: One who submits and vibrates to Absolute Laws and Absolute Principles

2007-12-04T19:11:00.000-08:00

Reflections! I submit...... I submit to being the infinite reflection I AM. I submit to the acceptance of honoring the infinite mission of uniting the aboriginals through-out the planet..... I said it...Yes I did.... I know it..... so Now with the acceptance.... I must broadcast what I need. I need those reflections who know that they have the same calling, but are fustrated with working with creations or reflections who are only interested in personal simple-minded goals, but are eager to work on solutions that will increase the vibration for our born children and yet unborn children. I need help..... I broadcast to you my reflections because when I broadcast I'm exercising universal inergies that span infinitely into internal consciousness which in-turns sparks inergies that causes motions to take place in the universe liberating the exact intuitive product that was needed. I'm so excited about understanding my lesson of knowing what the difference is between thinking and intuiting. Now today with my Universal submission, I give honor to SELF=Ancestors for activating me and encouraging me on my mission of bringing forth the anabolitic pathway. Reflections ONE-NESS, INFINITE.ABORIGINAL, AND OTHERS......I LOVE MYSELF

INTROSPECTION ON NEGRO ATTACHMENT

2007-12-03T10:47:00.000-08:00

Sawubona! Greetings AWI Family,

I am thankful for my AWI Family as I experience my vibration rising, the magnitude of reflected light increasing. I am thankful as I observe absolute laws and principles in effect, recognizing, acknowledging, receiving and accepting my absolute orientation in the universe and the experiences I manifest from insperience. I am thankful as I grow in knowledge of self.

Today, I called into fruition a lesson with Negro attachment after Introspecting on "Attachments" this morning.

A reflection of myself called today. I observed that my reflection wasn't broadcasting that my reflection needed help, and instead came with some bullshit. This is a NEGRO. Because I am still in a love attachment with this Negro, I used a mechanism I call "reasoning" that was based on an image/concept of being "patient, tolerant, and saving." However, Negroes are not "reasonable". They are ruled by emotions, desires and passions in their lower psyche. Thus, by reasoning to my Negro reflection, I was giving my Negro reflection "credit".

The universe doesn't give credit, it is point and exact. I was not point and exact because I was attached to the image/concept of myself as being "patient, tolerant and saving." So I did not submit to my absolute purpose to be point and exact and instead, dropped down to the love platform. In that platform, my experience was viewed in duality and my "safety/risk" and "good/bad" concepts kicked in. "Patient, tolerant, and saving" is SAFE and GOOD. "Point and exact" is "rude", "threatening", and "offending" which are the substances of RISK and BAD. So I was patient, tolerant and saving with an unreasonable Negro and this caused me frsutration. In this way, I created non-functional conceptial disorder (NFCD).

What I needed to do was treat a Negro point and exact as a Negro. No "reasoning". Speak to them in a language they understand. "Negro, don't call me with your bullshit and talking to me as if I am some Negro. (Click)". That is point and exact. Either the Negro wont call back, the Negro will call back from the force platform (in which case I just hang up) and refuse to answer any more calls, or the Negro, needing help, will call back and submit and state what it is that the Negro needs (broadcasting).

As I Intropsect on my expereince, I ask myself, when and how did I accept the image/concept of "patient, tolerant and saving". I know that it comes from observation in childhood and was implanted through CAPITALISM (safety/risk) and CHURCH/CHRISTIANITY (good/evil). However, I need to know: when and how was this first planted in my childhood?

The Duality in Oneness

2007-12-02T12:13:00.000-08:00

Today, my objective has been submittively focused on the tool of orientation and I see it. I have been looking at the one-ness, not only in form, but in duality. I was working on my quitting mechanism and orientating if there was quitting within my reflection, nature. I inrived that, the concept doesn't exist. For example, no matter how long it takes a lioness to catch her prey, she has not other option but to hunt until she is able to have substantial food for the pride. The mechanism of quitting is a duality concept, because it drives the thought of there being another option once I quit the objective I am working on.

As I drew the image of self, drew an infinity sign withing the self lif-o-gram.

I saw the one-ness from the male experience up to the male inspirience to the female experience to the female inspirience forward to the male experience over and over.
As I focused on the archetype, I inrived how I have been looking at the one-ness in duality. I saw the one-ness and duality as separate. But in actuality, they are one. When I viewed duality, I saw it being taken out of self, and the one-ness being put in it's place. Then I said, self is energy, and there is but one energy. So how could duality be taken out of the one energy, where would it go and where would the one-ness come from, there is only one. It can not be, only orientation of the concepts. Once I inrived that, I also saw how I was looking at anabolic/catabolic and absorption/projection from a dualistic mind set. I was saying that, if I don't grow anabolicly I will grow catabolicly. This again give the option of either or. There is no option in the universe, it is one. So, anabolic growth is. Catabolic growth is. They are one infinitely. The same goes for absorption/projection.

While orientated in the one-ness absolutely, I was able to identify the image I have been fighting to hold, instead of submitting and broadcasting to my absolute intentions. I have been competing with self as not to look vulnerable and weak because I am attached. I did not see the one-ness and thought I was hiding my insecurities when all the while I was trying to prove I was not where I actually am. Sounds crazy? Well, when in a dualistic reality I really thought I could project credit and be able to substantiate, in form, what I was projecting without the tools it took to hold it. Just like a negro to want the acknowledgements (external validation) and not do any work.

I am staying focused on orientation so I can submittively inrive the substance I need to get out of my negro dualistic concept. I am conscious as not to project credit. But, because I use this mechanism so seamlessly, I still don't have the substance of using it when speaking with reflection of self. I need help seeing/catching the mechanism is action. Now that I am broadcasting to my absolute intentions, am excited what I create as a product.

The Substance of What I Learned Today

2007-11-30T15:42:00.000-08:00

If I can not broadcast point and exact what I need, then I do not know where I am and the steps to get to where I am going and what I NEED is a LIFENOSIS!

Broadcast backlog: not a functional place to be

2007-11-29T16:40:00.000-08:00

I am at a point where I just want to throw my hands up and quit, because I don't seem to be growing in the way I think I should be. I don't see that I am learning from my past inspiriences. I am still fronting and being phony as a way to not work on the lessons I need to work on. I keep coming out with crap expecting reflections to accept it and when they tell me I am full of crap I get offended, feel attacked and want to close off. I am still not accepting my product by running from it and getting upset. I feel like I have to prove something. I am battling with the concepts of being vulnerable and weak, giving myself credit and not wanting to be where I am. I want to lash out physically and cut off my hair as a form of release/escape from the lesson. When I do submit to the lesson, I am doing it in duality. I see the work I have to do and I see it as too much/too hard. I look at my insecurities and esteem issues and don't know how to overcome them. I just want to quit. I need someone to hold me and tell me it is going to be alright, because I am afraid.

What has gotten me to this point? My lack of broadcasting to my absolute intentions. What do I do? State my purpose. My purpose Knowledge of Self. What are the objectives (steps) to get there? One of my objectives has been working on the negro menu, the substance of a negro. I broadcasted to the universe, a question last night before I went to bed. The question was, "What are the processes of the substance of a negro?" I had an inspirience with self today and last night that has brought me to an awareness, I have been projecting the answer to this very question.

My answer came through my lack of broadcasting to my absolute intentions. Some of the forms of the processes of a negor's substance, duality, is to: fake and front like I know what I'm doing as not to be looked as as weak or stupid, not to take responsibility and want to blame or give an excuse instead of submitting to the lesson, separating and going off 'by myself ', to prove 'I can do it alone', get defensive, fly off the handle, and quit only to face the same lesson over and over again, but the negro thinks the inspiriences are different and if ignored long enough it will just go away. A negro wants to be rescued/saved from the work and just wants to sit back and do nothing. A negro is scared, and doesn't want to face the fear or the cause of the fear. A negro can't stay focused on tasks without have a form of a slave master to "make me do it." When the negro feels threatened, no more safety zone, a negro rushes around to hurry up and do the work that's been avoided, to make it look like something is being done. Since this is where I am, I asked what do I do? Orientate.

All in all these forms are the displays of one major process of duality, safety/risk, with the known/unknown process being a result of why I choose to do what I think is safe. From a duality perception, I can easily say then I need to step into risk, but my purpose is not to stay in duality it is to be in the one-ness. So I must project and absorb the substance of the one-ness. The way to do that is to orientate the definitions I have for:

safety- substance: escaping, securing, locking, protecting

form: person, thing, oneself

risk- substance: endangering, losing, injuring, chancing, exposing

form: oneself

Now from this definition, I must also look up the definition of oneself, and it is not to be mistaken for the infinition of "self ".

oneself- substance: unaccompaning, withdrawing, owning

form: himself, herself, individual

From this definition, it shows that "oneself " is referring to male and female as individuals. Both of these words have more than one form establishing that the concept that is substantiating the word is a duality concept. So I ask, "Can this word be an infinition, which is a word that has the one-ness concept substantiating it?" No, because once the form is orientated to the archetype of self...
... looking at the definitions, how can I: escape self, secure self, lock self, protect self, endanger self, lose self, injure self, chance self, or expose self. None of these things make any sense when "self " is the only existing energy in the one-ness. So these words are not able to be made into infinitions. I have to replace them with a one-ness word, and the word will be:

growth- substance: absorbing, projecting, anabolizing, catabolizing

form: self

When looking at safety/risk these process surface as a result of a point of growth being faced. So I have been choosing safety for fear if I take a risk I won't grow or I have an expectation of how the growth will affect me. But in the one-ness growth is taking place through absorption/projection whether it is anabolic/catabolic. So, growth would be the word to replace for safety/risk.

Now, as I look back on where I am, I see that the key to my non-functional conceptual disorder is orientation. Now, what is the next step after being orientated into the one-ness? Introspection. Asking the questions: How did I get the concept of safety/risk embedded in my processes? How was I endoctrinated with the concept of duality? What was the cause of the mechanisms of quitting, running, cutting my hair, competition, and negrodom (laziness) begin? When did I first use these mechanisms? Are they in my family's genes? I could go on and on.

Don't think I am a pro at orientation. Not by any means. Thinking that way is giving myself credit and will allow for my growth but in the catabolitic duality concept with the rest of the negroes in the demo. I must and will keep applying my orientation steps and broadcasting to my absolute intentions to self my reflections at AWI.

I NEED HELP WITH ARCHETYPE OF SELF

2007-11-29T06:09:00.000-08:00

Barka dai Ausar,

Yes. "I just don't think that I can make the grade....but I must keep this to myself".

Ok. Yes, this is how I feel, about building AWI, about my relationships. THERE! I SAID IT!!!!!

I KEEP THIS TO MYSELF BECAUSE I AM AFRAID I WILL BE REJECTED (which is what will happen if I don't learn the lesson I am calling into fruition - I will end up rejecting/separating myself from AWI! - why would I do to myself the thing I am afraid of doing to myself???!!! NFCD!!! LOL!!!)

So I need help "making the grade."

For example, this morning I was Introspecting on SELF. I was looking at the ARCHETYPE OF SELF and my first questions were,

"Who/what am I, where am I and how did I get here?"

I know that I got here through my mother and father - I got here through the union/onenss of my father (male) and mother (female). And, since I am my mother and father, and they, likewise are their mothers and fathers, I, too am their mothers and fathers (i.e. my grandparents). And since my grandparents are also their grandparents, I too am my grandparents' grandparents. If I never went to school and been miseducated, and I was asked who am I, I would say I am my mother and my father, I am my ancestors. But who were the first ancestors?

This is where I got stuck and frustrated, because I don't know. So my mechanisms started kicking in to go do this, go do that, cause I couldn't answer the question, instead of broadcasting that I don't see/know the answer and I need help. How did the first ancestors get here? How do I get from here to the infinite?

I see from the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that "insperience" goes down to "experience" which is projected from the male to the female, which is then taken up from her "experience" to her "insperience" which she then projects, which in turn is absorbed by the male. This absorption and projection produces first will, then word, then structre, then form. So this is the process that was used to produce the "form" of our first ancestors. So in that sense, our ancestors, and hence we ourselves, are "the absorbing and projecting" of "insperience/experience" that "willed" us into "form".

So now my question is, where did this "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" come from? This ARCHETYPE OF SELF is itself an image, that, ostensibly, was produced by the same "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience". So what produced the prior "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" that produced the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that produced the universe as we know it?

This is where I start suffering from NFCD. Is this the point where my finite, linear thinking approaches the infinite where I must simply "submit" since that which is finite can not quantify that which is infinite?

My notes at AWI say that "All existence is based on this model - the ARCHYTPE OF SELF. Energy is this attraction between male/female that is the substance of the Universe.

UNIVERSE: the infinite involution of infinite (potential or kinetic) energy metabolized/ing based on absolute laws and principles.
s: metabolizing
f: energy

ENERGY:
s: metabolizing (anabolizing and catabolizing), moving, generating, creating,
f: universe, nature, self=male/female

So, the question restated again: Where did the substance of the Universe, male and female, come from?

Infinite Aboriginal

I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH IT JUST MAKES ME LAUGH

2007-11-28T20:31:00.000-08:00

LOVING SELF IS WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT. I get so excited when I can share how loving self has just had such an phenomenal effect in my infinite expressions. When you can express openly to YOURSELF that you need help without the limitations of what some-one might "SAY", "THINK", "DO", or "IMAGINE" liberates an atmosphere of Freedom. Why I'm I broadcasting tonight in this fashion? The reason being is because my reflections are inhibiting infinite levels of growth because of Fears of what I might say if they would just say....."You know I'm affraid", "I know I need you, but if I tell you that I need you....you might look indifferent at me because of my vulnerability",
"there is no way someone can know so much about me without ever laying eyes on me so I better be careful, when I know in my heart this is what I need", and "I just don't think that I can make the grade....but I must keep this to myself". Step Number 4: To Master your lower Triangle of your Pscye You must Subscribe and Broadcast to your Absolute Intentions. This Step is the gateway into gaining control of your thinking potential. Therefore, as your Reflection....I will continue to push the broadcast buttons. YOU KNOW I DO NOT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH BROADCASTING....now with that said you know that I KNOW what you are having a problem with broadcasting. The Universe does not makes mistakes only our limited excuses is what we feed ourselves as we attempt to dodge GROW. Now you know I know YOU.

Stop expecting....Broadcast what you need...and GROW

2007-11-28T20:16:00.000-08:00

Reflections!

This has been one week of long faces, fustration, and measured anticipation based on old worned out mechanisms that just don't work in the infinite. I must broadcast to the one-ness that its O.K. to just say that you are affraid! When you broadcast your absolute intentions then and only then will the universe unlock the infinite answer. It's O.K. when you look up and see that after the work has been invested that you see that you are still working with the same equation you were working on two months ago. The reason is because you learned another infinite lesson concerning the equation that your working on. Just calm-down and introspect on the fruit of the lesson. It's when you begin to get fustrated and complain that you lose focus on the fruit while initiating the same lesson into fruition. Pay close attention to the fundamentals of the mechanism. Remember...just because you got a mechanism to operate functionally does not mean that you are the master of that equation. You must continue to operate the equation until you can inrive substance that will allow you to begin to teach. Universal laws are in effect regardless to what emotional state you are in.....so Calm-down, revisit the mechanism, listen to your inner-substance, and let's get this institution rolling. I LOVE MYSELF

Step #2: Controlling Inputs to LIFENOSE AILMENT

2007-11-26T11:55:00.000-08:00

In Yini AWI Family. Ya ya dai? Ina fata kana lafiya.

Last night, as I was suffering from Non-Functional Conceptual Disorder (NFCD - seeing things from finite/duality instead of the Absoute Infinite Oneness), I started using the AWI tools of orientation, introspection and steps to knowledge of self. I SUBMITTED - that is, I shut up, sat down and listened to myself. I recognized, acknowledged, received and accepted where I was in the universe, that the substance of my actions was that I was being driven by my emotions, passions, desires - my lower psyche - by way of a love attachment. AWI blog readers will know about love attachments - think of a time when you don't do something that you know you need to do because of what someone might say or think, or because of fear of the unknown, afraid you might "lose" something. . . .. That's a love attachment - and it is based in not knowing oneself and experiencing life in duality. NFCD is created because the Universe=Self is telling you to move, to do this or that, and our "free-will" is saying, "what about this, what about that?" So we play it "safe" which means we stay where we are comfortable. When the freewill (often ruled by the emotions, passions, desires, etc) takes over instead of the Universal Self Intuition, then we don't move and we become out of harmony with the Universe=Self. Literally do not "know ourself".

So as soon as I submitted and listened to myself and accepted where I was and broadcast that I needed help, I heard a voice in my head say, "You need to continue doing the Tao Yin energy exercises that you stopped doing." I won't go into why I stopped doing them - that's another lesson!!! - but I will say that while I was working on Step #1 Nutrition, I had moved on to step #2: "In order to align your PHYSICAL INTERFACES into 'one' healthy system, you must control the physical inputs as to LIFENOSE the physical ailment." So I applied the answer the universe gave me and did the Tao Yin exercises today and I learned something about Step #2.

The Tao Yin exercises are a way of balancing and increasing internal energy. Each movement is designed to open and circulate energy through the body's meridians. Of course, if there is any blockage there due to injury, stress, emotional imbalance, etc, the exercise will reveal them. While I was exercising, i felt a pain in my back on the middle-left side below the shoulder. The pain was like a pin point, and I did not feel it before! You can imagine how happy I was!!!! No, I'm not a masochist . . . . I had located where I was blocking energy from flowing. If it weren't for the exercises, I would not have even known that energy was being blocked, let alone where it was. Now that I know, and I am "painfully" aware of it, I can now work on removing this blockage. This is healing.

So it was this revelations that showed me the meaning of Step #2 to knowledge of self and higher spiritual consciousness. Just as I needed to do internal physical exercises, controlling my breathe, thoughts and movements in order to inscover what was wrong, I (we) also need to do internal conscious execises controlling what we absorb and project in order to find out what is blocking the energy that will flow us to higher spiritual consciousness. What these exercises are and how to do them is what AWI calls the Melaninated Healing Model and that is what we do here and it is working. Of course, just as I experienced physical pain when doing the internal physical exercises, there is corresponding "consciousness" pain when doing the internal conscious exercises. No one likes to re-visit painful moments in their past - we burry the pain and move on. No one likes to admit perceived "shorcomings", "inadequacies", etc. We simply are taught to run and hide from that which makes us appear vulnerable. So when we bury the pain, and hide it and run from it, and refuse to admit that we need help, it sits there in our unconsciousness like an energy blockage. The only way to remove it is to become conscious of it first.

The Orientation and Introspection exercises showed me how a love attachment that I was not conscious of was blocking the energy needed to grow. Now, how to remove a Love Attachment? That's another post . . . . .

Infinite Aboriginal

Archetype of Self

2007-11-26T08:59:00.000-08:00

INTROSPECTING ON HOW TO RAISE VIBRATION THROUGH NUTRITION

2007-11-25T07:34:00.000-08:00

Barka dai. Greetings Ausuar.

At AWI, we are infinitely talking about and working on "raising our vibration" in order to ascend the Tree of Life into higher spiritual consciousness, to move from a mindset based in the finite/duality that sees the world in a multiplicity of forms to a mindset that is infinite and sees that the substance of the Universe is One "energy" or "One-ness" and that this energy is infinitely metabolizing - anabolizing and catabolizing - or in other words, absorbing and projecting -i.e. involving.

We perceive this energy according to our level of vibration/absorption and projection. The higher/faster we vibrate, the more we can absorb/project. At a high enough level, all becomes One. On the other hand, the lower/slower we vibrate, the less we can absorb/project. So we absorb/perceive the infinite oneness energy of the universe in "packets" or forms that we begin to recognize and perceive and project as "division". Thus, by raising our vibration, we become conscious of ourself as "one" with this Universal Energy that is infinite and infinitely invovling. Hence we know ourselves not as separate and divided "finite individuals" but rather as the "infinite involving energy" that is the Universe. This consciousness is symbolized by the Tree of Life.

Our ancestors asked us to observe this Tree. We saw that fruit from the tree fell to the ground and exposed its seeds. The seed grew roots, the roots grew a stem, the stem grew leaves, the stem grew larger and grew more leaves, then flowers, then fruit, then seed, which returned to the ground and went through the same involution again. Then our ancestors asked again, "What is the Tree? Is it the seed, the roots, the stem, the leaves, the flower, the fruit . . . .?" Then the ancestors saw that what was visible was form, that the tree was all of these things in form and that the form was created by an energy whose purpose was to infinitely produce the forms in season. So the Tree was infinite though its forms were finite. Hence our ancestors knew the Tree of Life.

Now the question becomes, how do we raise our vibration? What is vibration?

The dictionary says, "movement back and forth". By this, I understand that my vibration is my absorbing and projecting of the One-ness energy. For example, I inhale and exhale. This back-and-forth is a vibration. I rest and I work. This is a vibration. I ingest and I excrete. This is a vibration. I absorb and project through my eyes, ears, nose, mouth, skin and I absorb/project ideas in my mind, all of which are my input mechanisms as we say here at AWI.

So, to increase my vibration, I need to absorb and project energy that is vibrating at a higher level. Thus, I need to absorb air that vibrates at a higher level. I need to eat food that vibrates a higher energy level. I need to listen to music that vibrates a higher energy level. What I read and view has to vibrate a higher energy level. I need to use a language that vibrates a higher energy level, etc. Whatever I absorb/input, let's call this Nutrition.

What this means is that to increase my vibration, I NEED TO CHANGE MY CURRENT NUTRITION - what I am currently absorbing.

Now the question becomes, change it to what? Let's take food for example. How do I know what food has a higher vibration? I would have to test each food and observe the effects on my vibration. That is what I am doing right now. Eating just one kind of food for a few days and observing how I feel.

So this is where I am and where I am going. I am working on NUTRITION and CONTROLLING MY INPUTS to find out what it is that I ABSOLUTELY NEED.

Infinite Aboriginal

A Season of Involution at AWI

2007-11-25T06:33:00.000-08:00

Barka dai. Ya ya dai? Ina fata kana lafiya.

Greetings Absolute Wisdom Institute (AWI) family.

My season with AWI has awakened my awareness to the learning lessons that have been infinitely around me that I did not see or consciously/unconsciously avoided. Recognizing, acknowledging, receiving and accepting these lessons has indeed been the basis of seeing/knowing where I am (absolutely) in regard to the universe and starting me on the path of knowledge of self to higher spiritual consciousness.

Now that AWI is absorbing and projecting on the internet, the vibration will rise as reflections of Self/One-ness enter into right brain spherical learning and move from Duality into One-ness/Knowledge of Self.

To AWI Blog readers - growth begins from where we are. Thus, we must not be "afraid" to admit where we are - so-called "strengths" and "weaknesses". We must not run from vulnerability and hide the fact that we need help in order to grow. If we project that we do not need help when we do, we will not recognize, acknowledge, receive and accept what we need to grow - we will stay trapped in a world of projected false images/forms that will one day be tested and found unsubstantiated. AWI is here to help those who know they need help to grow into higher spiritual consciousness.

We are the Universe, the One-ness, infinitely involving!

Infinite Aboriginal

Introduction from the Introspecturers

2007-11-23T16:34:00.000-08:00

It is with infinite honor and infinite inergy that we synchronize with our reflections. This blog site will be maintained by the Introspecturers of Absolute Wisdom Institute. For the reflections who know about the Institution get prepared to increase your vibration for those of you who are learning about us get prepared to submit questions. Remember if we cannot answer your question with point and exactness within our state of consciousness we know how to get the answer. So there are no answers that cannot be inrived. If a question can be inrived from substance means a answer complemented the question. Don't be afraid of the language....we have our unique way of communicating our perception of SELF. We speak with both definitions and infinitions. In our blog site we will slowly educate those who are in need of higher inner-standing about our language and the infinite concept driving our purpose. THE ONE-NESS concept. Our topics will range based on the lessons we are inriving from the institution. So as we are navigating in the ONE-NESS so shall our reflections. WE LOVE OURSELVES.