CHAMPION TEST & RESPONSIBILITY

Greetings AWI Family,

I have been absorbing and projecting lessons about what it takes to be a champion and responsibility. Yesterday I was tested.

I had to pack, move and clean a 3rd floor apartment by myself. It was a mess - clothes, papers, cd's and dvd's everywhere, dishes left out with food rotting on them - it was disgusting. Bathroom was worse. So I went to start in the bedroom.

I wasn't Orientated when I started - my consciousness was that this was a task/job that I wanted to just finish as quickly as possible, know what I mean? As I rushed to stuff clothers in bags, I thought of the gigantic mess I had yet to pack and having to move everything three florrs to the basement, and all the cleaning. I was QUANTIFYING what I was experienceing/facing. Then I heard the Ancestors say, "WHAT ELSE DO YOU HAVE TO DO. YOU HAVE WHAT YOU NEED, THERE'S NO WHERE YOU HAVE TO GO, THIS IS YOUR LESSON. SUBMIT!"

So I submitted. No longer rushing or looking to the work ahead, I start moving, step by step. The work started flowing . . . .

As I continued to work, however, I thought, "This is going to take awhile. I can't do it all by myself TODAY. I'll pack and move everything today and do the cleaning tomorrow before its time to show the apartment. That's good enough - after all, I have to carry all this stuff myself and its HEAVY (see substance and form below).

Then I heard the Ancestors say, "BE A CHAMPION, DON'T QUIT UNTIL APARTMENT IS SPARKLING. "

So instead of quitting in the afternoon, I submitted and accepted my purpose. Once I did this, I started Orientating and Introspecting. How did I create this experience? The tenant who left the apartment is a reflection of mySelf. Why did I leave like this?

I thought about how my reflection arrived at AWI. After being evicted my reflection made a sincere cry to the universe for help. Now my reflection was in the same situation, needing to find another place to live quickly. The same lesson again. Obviously my reflection did not see the substance of his in/experience and what he was projecting that created it. However, since this experience was just a reflection of Self, it was my lesson. What substance of my in/experience am I not seeing? What am I projecting that will push me away from AWI? This question bothered me . . . . I have been repeating lessons, too, only I know the substance of why I am here (to grow), but I keep looking at form of being here and using my quantifying mechanism instead of using my absolute, innate learning mechanisms. I need to stop doing this and keep applying absolute learning (more on that later). Introspecting on this, I started to feel a tightness in my chest.

So while I was working, SAHU sensations tried to get me to contract. Porno dvd covers tried to get me . . . .I took responsibility for my VISUAL NUTRITION INPUT and said, "No thank you!" and put them in a pile without indulging.

Working alone caused me to reflect on previous apartments I had, which in turn caused me to think about the relationships I had in them. I started to feel a little lonely but I recognized that contract and quickly Orientated - no way was I gonna lower my vibration from champion to loser! However, accepting where I was/season of growth, I had to accept vulnerability - and this caused my chest to feel "tight" - like I had a lump in my throat, only a little lower in my upper chest. It makes my voice "shaky" when I talk. I've been experiencing this more frequently over the past few weeks. I am "sensing" something and I know it is because I am not BROADCASTING.

By 5:00 pm - seven hours after I started - I had made the apartment sparkle. I had passed my CHAMPION test, and already the universe was pushing the next test. What was/is this causing my tight chest? What do I need to broadcast?

It came out later speaking to another reflection: I AM SICK AND TIRED OF IN/EXPERIENCING THE WORLD AS A BOY! NOW IS THE SEASON FOR MANHOOD AND RESPONSIBILITY!

HEAVY
substance: weighing
form: object(s)

WEIGHING
s: measuring
f: object, concept

MEASURING
s: comparing
f: object, concept 1 (object), concept 2 (accepted standard)

COMPARING
s: perceiving
f: object, concept

PERCEIVING
s: projecting
f: concept

PROJECTING
s: activating
f: concept

ACTIVATING
s: sensing
f: object(person)