The Substance of What I Learned Today

If I can not broadcast point and exact what I need, then I do not know where I am and the steps to get to where I am going and what I NEED is a LIFENOSIS!

Broadcast backlog: not a functional place to be

I am at a point where I just want to throw my hands up and quit, because I don't seem to be growing in the way I think I should be. I don't see that I am learning from my past inspiriences. I am still fronting and being phony as a way to not work on the lessons I need to work on. I keep coming out with crap expecting reflections to accept it and when they tell me I am full of crap I get offended, feel attacked and want to close off. I am still not accepting my product by running from it and getting upset. I feel like I have to prove something. I am battling with the concepts of being vulnerable and weak, giving myself credit and not wanting to be where I am. I want to lash out physically and cut off my hair as a form of release/escape from the lesson. When I do submit to the lesson, I am doing it in duality. I see the work I have to do and I see it as too much/too hard. I look at my insecurities and esteem issues and don't know how to overcome them. I just want to quit. I need someone to hold me and tell me it is going to be alright, because I am afraid.

What has gotten me to this point? My lack of broadcasting to my absolute intentions. What do I do? State my purpose. My purpose Knowledge of Self. What are the objectives (steps) to get there? One of my objectives has been working on the negro menu, the substance of a negro. I broadcasted to the universe, a question last night before I went to bed. The question was, "What are the processes of the substance of a negro?" I had an inspirience with self today and last night that has brought me to an awareness, I have been projecting the answer to this very question.

My answer came through my lack of broadcasting to my absolute intentions. Some of the forms of the processes of a negor's substance, duality, is to: fake and front like I know what I'm doing as not to be looked as as weak or stupid, not to take responsibility and want to blame or give an excuse instead of submitting to the lesson, separating and going off 'by myself ', to prove 'I can do it alone', get defensive, fly off the handle, and quit only to face the same lesson over and over again, but the negro thinks the inspiriences are different and if ignored long enough it will just go away. A negro wants to be rescued/saved from the work and just wants to sit back and do nothing. A negro is scared, and doesn't want to face the fear or the cause of the fear. A negro can't stay focused on tasks without have a form of a slave master to "make me do it." When the negro feels threatened, no more safety zone, a negro rushes around to hurry up and do the work that's been avoided, to make it look like something is being done. Since this is where I am, I asked what do I do? Orientate.

All in all these forms are the displays of one major process of duality, safety/risk, with the known/unknown process being a result of why I choose to do what I think is safe. From a duality perception, I can easily say then I need to step into risk, but my purpose is not to stay in duality it is to be in the one-ness. So I must project and absorb the substance of the one-ness. The way to do that is to orientate the definitions I have for:

safety- substance: escaping, securing, locking, protecting

form: person, thing, oneself

risk- substance: endangering, losing, injuring, chancing, exposing

form: oneself

Now from this definition, I must also look up the definition of oneself, and it is not to be mistaken for the infinition of "self ".

oneself- substance: unaccompaning, withdrawing, owning

form: himself, herself, individual

From this definition, it shows that "oneself " is referring to male and female as individuals. Both of these words have more than one form establishing that the concept that is substantiating the word is a duality concept. So I ask, "Can this word be an infinition, which is a word that has the one-ness concept substantiating it?" No, because once the form is orientated to the archetype of self...
... looking at the definitions, how can I: escape self, secure self, lock self, protect self, endanger self, lose self, injure self, chance self, or expose self. None of these things make any sense when "self " is the only existing energy in the one-ness. So these words are not able to be made into infinitions. I have to replace them with a one-ness word, and the word will be:

growth- substance: absorbing, projecting, anabolizing, catabolizing

form: self

When looking at safety/risk these process surface as a result of a point of growth being faced. So I have been choosing safety for fear if I take a risk I won't grow or I have an expectation of how the growth will affect me. But in the one-ness growth is taking place through absorption/projection whether it is anabolic/catabolic. So, growth would be the word to replace for safety/risk.

Now, as I look back on where I am, I see that the key to my non-functional conceptual disorder is orientation. Now, what is the next step after being orientated into the one-ness? Introspection. Asking the questions: How did I get the concept of safety/risk embedded in my processes? How was I endoctrinated with the concept of duality? What was the cause of the mechanisms of quitting, running, cutting my hair, competition, and negrodom (laziness) begin? When did I first use these mechanisms? Are they in my family's genes? I could go on and on.

Don't think I am a pro at orientation. Not by any means. Thinking that way is giving myself credit and will allow for my growth but in the catabolitic duality concept with the rest of the negroes in the demo. I must and will keep applying my orientation steps and broadcasting to my absolute intentions to self my reflections at AWI.

I NEED HELP WITH ARCHETYPE OF SELF

Barka dai Ausar,

Yes. "I just don't think that I can make the grade....but I must keep this to myself".

Ok. Yes, this is how I feel, about building AWI, about my relationships. THERE! I SAID IT!!!!!

I KEEP THIS TO MYSELF BECAUSE I AM AFRAID I WILL BE REJECTED (which is what will happen if I don't learn the lesson I am calling into fruition - I will end up rejecting/separating myself from AWI! - why would I do to myself the thing I am afraid of doing to myself???!!! NFCD!!! LOL!!!)

So I need help "making the grade."

For example, this morning I was Introspecting on SELF. I was looking at the ARCHETYPE OF SELF and my first questions were,

"Who/what am I, where am I and how did I get here?"

I know that I got here through my mother and father - I got here through the union/onenss of my father (male) and mother (female). And, since I am my mother and father, and they, likewise are their mothers and fathers, I, too am their mothers and fathers (i.e. my grandparents). And since my grandparents are also their grandparents, I too am my grandparents' grandparents. If I never went to school and been miseducated, and I was asked who am I, I would say I am my mother and my father, I am my ancestors. But who were the first ancestors?

This is where I got stuck and frustrated, because I don't know. So my mechanisms started kicking in to go do this, go do that, cause I couldn't answer the question, instead of broadcasting that I don't see/know the answer and I need help. How did the first ancestors get here? How do I get from here to the infinite?

I see from the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that "insperience" goes down to "experience" which is projected from the male to the female, which is then taken up from her "experience" to her "insperience" which she then projects, which in turn is absorbed by the male. This absorption and projection produces first will, then word, then structre, then form. So this is the process that was used to produce the "form" of our first ancestors. So in that sense, our ancestors, and hence we ourselves, are "the absorbing and projecting" of "insperience/experience" that "willed" us into "form".

So now my question is, where did this "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" come from? This ARCHETYPE OF SELF is itself an image, that, ostensibly, was produced by the same "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience". So what produced the prior "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" that produced the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that produced the universe as we know it?

This is where I start suffering from NFCD. Is this the point where my finite, linear thinking approaches the infinite where I must simply "submit" since that which is finite can not quantify that which is infinite?

My notes at AWI say that "All existence is based on this model - the ARCHYTPE OF SELF. Energy is this attraction between male/female that is the substance of the Universe.

UNIVERSE: the infinite involution of infinite (potential or kinetic) energy metabolized/ing based on absolute laws and principles.
s: metabolizing
f: energy

ENERGY:
s: metabolizing (anabolizing and catabolizing), moving, generating, creating,
f: universe, nature, self=male/female

So, the question restated again: Where did the substance of the Universe, male and female, come from?

Infinite Aboriginal

I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH IT JUST MAKES ME LAUGH

LOVING SELF IS WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT. I get so excited when I can share how loving self has just had such an phenomenal effect in my infinite expressions. When you can express openly to YOURSELF that you need help without the limitations of what some-one might "SAY", "THINK", "DO", or "IMAGINE" liberates an atmosphere of Freedom. Why I'm I broadcasting tonight in this fashion? The reason being is because my reflections are inhibiting infinite levels of growth because of Fears of what I might say if they would just say....."You know I'm affraid", "I know I need you, but if I tell you that I need you....you might look indifferent at me because of my vulnerability",
"there is no way someone can know so much about me without ever laying eyes on me so I better be careful, when I know in my heart this is what I need", and "I just don't think that I can make the grade....but I must keep this to myself". Step Number 4: To Master your lower Triangle of your Pscye You must Subscribe and Broadcast to your Absolute Intentions. This Step is the gateway into gaining control of your thinking potential. Therefore, as your Reflection....I will continue to push the broadcast buttons. YOU KNOW I DO NOT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH BROADCASTING....now with that said you know that I KNOW what you are having a problem with broadcasting. The Universe does not makes mistakes only our limited excuses is what we feed ourselves as we attempt to dodge GROW. Now you know I know YOU.

Stop expecting....Broadcast what you need...and GROW

Reflections!

This has been one week of long faces, fustration, and measured anticipation based on old worned out mechanisms that just don't work in the infinite. I must broadcast to the one-ness that its O.K. to just say that you are affraid! When you broadcast your absolute intentions then and only then will the universe unlock the infinite answer. It's O.K. when you look up and see that after the work has been invested that you see that you are still working with the same equation you were working on two months ago. The reason is because you learned another infinite lesson concerning the equation that your working on. Just calm-down and introspect on the fruit of the lesson. It's when you begin to get fustrated and complain that you lose focus on the fruit while initiating the same lesson into fruition. Pay close attention to the fundamentals of the mechanism. Remember...just because you got a mechanism to operate functionally does not mean that you are the master of that equation. You must continue to operate the equation until you can inrive substance that will allow you to begin to teach. Universal laws are in effect regardless to what emotional state you are in.....so Calm-down, revisit the mechanism, listen to your inner-substance, and let's get this institution rolling. I LOVE MYSELF

Step #2: Controlling Inputs to LIFENOSE AILMENT

In Yini AWI Family. Ya ya dai? Ina fata kana lafiya.

Last night, as I was suffering from Non-Functional Conceptual Disorder (NFCD - seeing things from finite/duality instead of the Absoute Infinite Oneness), I started using the AWI tools of orientation, introspection and steps to knowledge of self. I SUBMITTED - that is, I shut up, sat down and listened to myself. I recognized, acknowledged, received and accepted where I was in the universe, that the substance of my actions was that I was being driven by my emotions, passions, desires - my lower psyche - by way of a love attachment. AWI blog readers will know about love attachments - think of a time when you don't do something that you know you need to do because of what someone might say or think, or because of fear of the unknown, afraid you might "lose" something. . . .. That's a love attachment - and it is based in not knowing oneself and experiencing life in duality. NFCD is created because the Universe=Self is telling you to move, to do this or that, and our "free-will" is saying, "what about this, what about that?" So we play it "safe" which means we stay where we are comfortable. When the freewill (often ruled by the emotions, passions, desires, etc) takes over instead of the Universal Self Intuition, then we don't move and we become out of harmony with the Universe=Self. Literally do not "know ourself".

So as soon as I submitted and listened to myself and accepted where I was and broadcast that I needed help, I heard a voice in my head say, "You need to continue doing the Tao Yin energy exercises that you stopped doing." I won't go into why I stopped doing them - that's another lesson!!! - but I will say that while I was working on Step #1 Nutrition, I had moved on to step #2: "In order to align your PHYSICAL INTERFACES into 'one' healthy system, you must control the physical inputs as to LIFENOSE the physical ailment." So I applied the answer the universe gave me and did the Tao Yin exercises today and I learned something about Step #2.

The Tao Yin exercises are a way of balancing and increasing internal energy. Each movement is designed to open and circulate energy through the body's meridians. Of course, if there is any blockage there due to injury, stress, emotional imbalance, etc, the exercise will reveal them. While I was exercising, i felt a pain in my back on the middle-left side below the shoulder. The pain was like a pin point, and I did not feel it before! You can imagine how happy I was!!!! No, I'm not a masochist . . . . I had located where I was blocking energy from flowing. If it weren't for the exercises, I would not have even known that energy was being blocked, let alone where it was. Now that I know, and I am "painfully" aware of it, I can now work on removing this blockage. This is healing.

So it was this revelations that showed me the meaning of Step #2 to knowledge of self and higher spiritual consciousness. Just as I needed to do internal physical exercises, controlling my breathe, thoughts and movements in order to inscover what was wrong, I (we) also need to do internal conscious execises controlling what we absorb and project in order to find out what is blocking the energy that will flow us to higher spiritual consciousness. What these exercises are and how to do them is what AWI calls the Melaninated Healing Model and that is what we do here and it is working. Of course, just as I experienced physical pain when doing the internal physical exercises, there is corresponding "consciousness" pain when doing the internal conscious exercises. No one likes to re-visit painful moments in their past - we burry the pain and move on. No one likes to admit perceived "shorcomings", "inadequacies", etc. We simply are taught to run and hide from that which makes us appear vulnerable. So when we bury the pain, and hide it and run from it, and refuse to admit that we need help, it sits there in our unconsciousness like an energy blockage. The only way to remove it is to become conscious of it first.

The Orientation and Introspection exercises showed me how a love attachment that I was not conscious of was blocking the energy needed to grow. Now, how to remove a Love Attachment? That's another post . . . . .

Infinite Aboriginal

Archetype of Self

INTROSPECTING ON HOW TO RAISE VIBRATION THROUGH NUTRITION

Barka dai. Greetings Ausuar.

At AWI, we are infinitely talking about and working on "raising our vibration" in order to ascend the Tree of Life into higher spiritual consciousness, to move from a mindset based in the finite/duality that sees the world in a multiplicity of forms to a mindset that is infinite and sees that the substance of the Universe is One "energy" or "One-ness" and that this energy is infinitely metabolizing - anabolizing and catabolizing - or in other words, absorbing and projecting -i.e. involving.

We perceive this energy according to our level of vibration/absorption and projection. The higher/faster we vibrate, the more we can absorb/project. At a high enough level, all becomes One. On the other hand, the lower/slower we vibrate, the less we can absorb/project. So we absorb/perceive the infinite oneness energy of the universe in "packets" or forms that we begin to recognize and perceive and project as "division". Thus, by raising our vibration, we become conscious of ourself as "one" with this Universal Energy that is infinite and infinitely invovling. Hence we know ourselves not as separate and divided "finite individuals" but rather as the "infinite involving energy" that is the Universe. This consciousness is symbolized by the Tree of Life.

Our ancestors asked us to observe this Tree. We saw that fruit from the tree fell to the ground and exposed its seeds. The seed grew roots, the roots grew a stem, the stem grew leaves, the stem grew larger and grew more leaves, then flowers, then fruit, then seed, which returned to the ground and went through the same involution again. Then our ancestors asked again, "What is the Tree? Is it the seed, the roots, the stem, the leaves, the flower, the fruit . . . .?" Then the ancestors saw that what was visible was form, that the tree was all of these things in form and that the form was created by an energy whose purpose was to infinitely produce the forms in season. So the Tree was infinite though its forms were finite. Hence our ancestors knew the Tree of Life.

Now the question becomes, how do we raise our vibration? What is vibration?

The dictionary says, "movement back and forth". By this, I understand that my vibration is my absorbing and projecting of the One-ness energy. For example, I inhale and exhale. This back-and-forth is a vibration. I rest and I work. This is a vibration. I ingest and I excrete. This is a vibration. I absorb and project through my eyes, ears, nose, mouth, skin and I absorb/project ideas in my mind, all of which are my input mechanisms as we say here at AWI.

So, to increase my vibration, I need to absorb and project energy that is vibrating at a higher level. Thus, I need to absorb air that vibrates at a higher level. I need to eat food that vibrates a higher energy level. I need to listen to music that vibrates a higher energy level. What I read and view has to vibrate a higher energy level. I need to use a language that vibrates a higher energy level, etc. Whatever I absorb/input, let's call this Nutrition.

What this means is that to increase my vibration, I NEED TO CHANGE MY CURRENT NUTRITION - what I am currently absorbing.

Now the question becomes, change it to what? Let's take food for example. How do I know what food has a higher vibration? I would have to test each food and observe the effects on my vibration. That is what I am doing right now. Eating just one kind of food for a few days and observing how I feel.

So this is where I am and where I am going. I am working on NUTRITION and CONTROLLING MY INPUTS to find out what it is that I ABSOLUTELY NEED.

Infinite Aboriginal

A Season of Involution at AWI

Barka dai. Ya ya dai? Ina fata kana lafiya.

Greetings Absolute Wisdom Institute (AWI) family.

My season with AWI has awakened my awareness to the learning lessons that have been infinitely around me that I did not see or consciously/unconsciously avoided. Recognizing, acknowledging, receiving and accepting these lessons has indeed been the basis of seeing/knowing where I am (absolutely) in regard to the universe and starting me on the path of knowledge of self to higher spiritual consciousness.

Now that AWI is absorbing and projecting on the internet, the vibration will rise as reflections of Self/One-ness enter into right brain spherical learning and move from Duality into One-ness/Knowledge of Self.

To AWI Blog readers - growth begins from where we are. Thus, we must not be "afraid" to admit where we are - so-called "strengths" and "weaknesses". We must not run from vulnerability and hide the fact that we need help in order to grow. If we project that we do not need help when we do, we will not recognize, acknowledge, receive and accept what we need to grow - we will stay trapped in a world of projected false images/forms that will one day be tested and found unsubstantiated. AWI is here to help those who know they need help to grow into higher spiritual consciousness.

We are the Universe, the One-ness, infinitely involving!

Infinite Aboriginal

Introduction from the Introspecturers

It is with infinite honor and infinite inergy that we synchronize with our reflections. This blog site will be maintained by the Introspecturers of Absolute Wisdom Institute. For the reflections who know about the Institution get prepared to increase your vibration for those of you who are learning about us get prepared to submit questions. Remember if we cannot answer your question with point and exactness within our state of consciousness we know how to get the answer. So there are no answers that cannot be inrived. If a question can be inrived from substance means a answer complemented the question. Don't be afraid of the language....we have our unique way of communicating our perception of SELF. We speak with both definitions and infinitions. In our blog site we will slowly educate those who are in need of higher inner-standing about our language and the infinite concept driving our purpose. THE ONE-NESS concept. Our topics will range based on the lessons we are inriving from the institution. So as we are navigating in the ONE-NESS so shall our reflections. WE LOVE OURSELVES.