Barka dai Ausar,
Yes. "I just don't think that I can make the grade....but I must keep this to myself".
Ok. Yes, this is how I feel, about building AWI, about my relationships. THERE! I SAID IT!!!!!
I KEEP THIS TO MYSELF BECAUSE I AM AFRAID I WILL BE REJECTED (which is what will happen if I don't learn the lesson I am calling into fruition - I will end up rejecting/separating myself from AWI! - why would I do to myself the thing I am afraid of doing to myself???!!! NFCD!!! LOL!!!)
So I need help "making the grade."
For example, this morning I was Introspecting on SELF. I was looking at the ARCHETYPE OF SELF and my first questions were,
"Who/what am I, where am I and how did I get here?"
I know that I got here through my mother and father - I got here through the union/onenss of my father (male) and mother (female). And, since I am my mother and father, and they, likewise are their mothers and fathers, I, too am their mothers and fathers (i.e. my grandparents). And since my grandparents are also their grandparents, I too am my grandparents' grandparents. If I never went to school and been miseducated, and I was asked who am I, I would say I am my mother and my father, I am my ancestors. But who were the first ancestors?
This is where I got stuck and frustrated, because I don't know. So my mechanisms started kicking in to go do this, go do that, cause I couldn't answer the question, instead of broadcasting that I don't see/know the answer and I need help. How did the first ancestors get here? How do I get from here to the infinite?
I see from the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that "insperience" goes down to "experience" which is projected from the male to the female, which is then taken up from her "experience" to her "insperience" which she then projects, which in turn is absorbed by the male. This absorption and projection produces first will, then word, then structre, then form. So this is the process that was used to produce the "form" of our first ancestors. So in that sense, our ancestors, and hence we ourselves, are "the absorbing and projecting" of "insperience/experience" that "willed" us into "form".
So now my question is, where did this "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" come from? This ARCHETYPE OF SELF is itself an image, that, ostensibly, was produced by the same "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience". So what produced the prior "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" that produced the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that produced the universe as we know it?
This is where I start suffering from NFCD. Is this the point where my finite, linear thinking approaches the infinite where I must simply "submit" since that which is finite can not quantify that which is infinite?
My notes at AWI say that "All existence is based on this model - the ARCHYTPE OF SELF. Energy is this attraction between male/female that is the substance of the Universe.
UNIVERSE: the infinite involution of infinite (potential or kinetic) energy metabolized/ing based on absolute laws and principles.
s: metabolizing
f: energy
ENERGY:
s: metabolizing (anabolizing and catabolizing), moving, generating, creating,
f: universe, nature, self=male/female
So, the question restated again: Where did the substance of the Universe, male and female, come from?
Infinite Aboriginal
Yes. "I just don't think that I can make the grade....but I must keep this to myself".
Ok. Yes, this is how I feel, about building AWI, about my relationships. THERE! I SAID IT!!!!!
I KEEP THIS TO MYSELF BECAUSE I AM AFRAID I WILL BE REJECTED (which is what will happen if I don't learn the lesson I am calling into fruition - I will end up rejecting/separating myself from AWI! - why would I do to myself the thing I am afraid of doing to myself???!!! NFCD!!! LOL!!!)
So I need help "making the grade."
For example, this morning I was Introspecting on SELF. I was looking at the ARCHETYPE OF SELF and my first questions were,
"Who/what am I, where am I and how did I get here?"
I know that I got here through my mother and father - I got here through the union/onenss of my father (male) and mother (female). And, since I am my mother and father, and they, likewise are their mothers and fathers, I, too am their mothers and fathers (i.e. my grandparents). And since my grandparents are also their grandparents, I too am my grandparents' grandparents. If I never went to school and been miseducated, and I was asked who am I, I would say I am my mother and my father, I am my ancestors. But who were the first ancestors?
This is where I got stuck and frustrated, because I don't know. So my mechanisms started kicking in to go do this, go do that, cause I couldn't answer the question, instead of broadcasting that I don't see/know the answer and I need help. How did the first ancestors get here? How do I get from here to the infinite?
I see from the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that "insperience" goes down to "experience" which is projected from the male to the female, which is then taken up from her "experience" to her "insperience" which she then projects, which in turn is absorbed by the male. This absorption and projection produces first will, then word, then structre, then form. So this is the process that was used to produce the "form" of our first ancestors. So in that sense, our ancestors, and hence we ourselves, are "the absorbing and projecting" of "insperience/experience" that "willed" us into "form".
So now my question is, where did this "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" come from? This ARCHETYPE OF SELF is itself an image, that, ostensibly, was produced by the same "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience". So what produced the prior "absorbing and projecting of insperience/experience" that produced the ARCHETYPE OF SELF that produced the universe as we know it?
This is where I start suffering from NFCD. Is this the point where my finite, linear thinking approaches the infinite where I must simply "submit" since that which is finite can not quantify that which is infinite?
My notes at AWI say that "All existence is based on this model - the ARCHYTPE OF SELF. Energy is this attraction between male/female that is the substance of the Universe.
UNIVERSE: the infinite involution of infinite (potential or kinetic) energy metabolized/ing based on absolute laws and principles.
s: metabolizing
f: energy
ENERGY:
s: metabolizing (anabolizing and catabolizing), moving, generating, creating,
f: universe, nature, self=male/female
So, the question restated again: Where did the substance of the Universe, male and female, come from?
Infinite Aboriginal
1 comment:
The Universe is Energy metabolizing (anabolizing and catabolizing) thru reflection. Energy is SELF. So to answer your question.....Man has always existed. Man does not have a birth record. What you perceive as man is just a vibrational reflection of the infinite energy.
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