ANSWERING RAKARA'S QUESTIONS RE: ORIENTATION

TREE OF LIFE

Greetings Rakara,

Thank you for the commitment to learn and grow. As I answer the questions you asked, I am saying to myself: "We are one -teacher and student". So I am learning from answering these questions, seen?

1. Is orientating just a matter of changing what I see, hear, taste, touch, smell, etc?

Actually, I say “yes”. Let me give you an example. You know the question, “Is the glass half empty or half full?” The reality of the glass experience is based on a person’s consciousness or purpose at the time. If I need to water ten houseplants or I am very thirsty, a “half-empty” glass is not enough. If I need to add a tablespoon of water to a recipe or wet the corner of a paper towel, a “half-full” glass is enough. So purpose has a lot to do with how one senses the universe.

Now let’s take another example. If I say, “wipe the kitchen floor”, you would get a broom and a mop. Now, if your perception of yourself is a “dog”, you would “lick” the floor. Your perception of self changed how you see, hear, taste, touch and smell – and therefore, how you behave.

Now here’s a third example. Let’s say you walk down the street and you see Mr. Jones old house is falling apart. Since you do not see Mr. Jones as yourself, you walk by and say, “Look at that. Poor Mr. Jones’ house is falling apart. That’s a shame. I wonder what he’s going to do?” However, if you see Mr. Jones as yourself, you walk by and say, “Damn! My house is falling down. I need to get some help and fix it up, otherwise I won’t have a house to live in!” and you get some people to help you fix it up. In the first case, seeing Mr. Jones as separate from yourself (Duality), it is not your responsibility to fix the house – that’s Mr. Jones’ problem, not yours. In the latter case, when you see Mr. Jones as yourself (Oneness), you take responsibility for fixing Mr. Jones/your house.

So this is why I say that orientating is a matter of changing what I see, hear, taste, touch and smell. However, changing how I sense the universe after a lifetime or even generations, of sensing the universe from the duality perspective is not just a matter of merely saying to oneself, “The universe is One”.

How does one go about orientating?

Let me use an external example first. If you are lost in a forest, how would you get out? If you called me on a cell phone and said, “I am lost, come and get me” I would say, “Where are you?” You would say, “I don’t know, I’m lost.” Then I would say, “I can’t come and get you if I don’t know where you are.”

So, not knowing where you are and how to get where you are going (“un-lost”), you don’t move. Not knowing where you are, I don’t move to come and get you, either.

So now you start looking around you. You see many trees. There is a mountain up ahead. Not far towards the direction of the sun is a stream. Observing these things, you start to calculate – I am facing the mountain. I can follow this stream and maybe it will lead me to a house or a road. YOU JUST ORIENTATED. You calculated your perceptions (mountain, stream, sun) and established where you are/a position based on external references. You then visualized where you wanted to go/your destination - a house or road. Once you knew where you were/your position, and where you were going/your destination, you had a purpose - to move following the stream in the direction of the mountain.

So you follow the stream and it leads you to a dirt road. Then you follow the dirt road and it leads you to an intersection that says, “Hope junction 3 miles”. You have no idea where Hope Junction is, but you walk the three miles and come to a gas station. The station manager pulls out a map and shows you were Hope Junction is – 15 miles South of Mt. Zion. So you call me and say, “I am at Hope Junction, 15 miles south of Mt. Zion off Route 66”. Now you know exactly where you are. Why? Because you have a map!

So from this external example, we see that ORIENTATING is a process that involves:

-looking around, perceiving, observing (sensing)
-adding to/subtracting from the perceptions (calculating)
- establishing a position, destination, and route (mapping)

Now let’s go to an internal example. If I ask, “where are you in consciousness?” or “Where are you spiritually?”, what do you answer? Can you give a point and exact answer such as “Hope Junction, 15 miles south of Mt. Zion off Route 66”? What is the “map of consciousness”?

Just as in the external example, to Orientate, one needs to look at, perceive, observe (sense) what is in/around one’s consciousness. However, if consciousness is “internal”, how do I perceive it?

To perceive one’s consciousness, look at the words one is using. The words are a projection of the concepts and images in one’s mind/consciousness.

Now calculate the words – what do I mean when I say, “ . . . . . “? What is the denotative definition of the word I am using? The denotative definition is the root or base meaning of the word. It is the essence or substance of the word. To find the denotative value of a word, write the substance and form of the word. For example, take the word “chair” The form of a chair is (generally), four legs, seat, back, arms. The substance of a chair is what it is used for: sitting, resting, supporting, standing, etc.

CHAIR
S: sitting, resting, supporting, standing, etc
F: four legs, seat, back, arms

A chair is an external object – you can see it, touch it, etc. Now let’s look at the word love. What is the substance and form of the word love?

LOVE
S: hugging, kissing, nurturing, caring, listening, nurturing, feeding, teaching, cherishing, devoting, protecting, etc
F: experience, people (husband, wives, family, children, friends), things (car, song, pet, events, ideas)

What does this tell us about our perception? Consider the Mr. Jones example above. I see the form of a chair as four legs, seat, back and arms. I do not see the form of the chair as Self. Likewise with love. I see multiple forms of love, not a single form which is Self. So whenever I am using words and the form of the words I am using is not “Self”, then I am seeing the world of external forms which is duality. Since there is multiple “distinct” forms, each form has a limit that separates one form from another. Whenever there is a limit, there is a beginning and an ending. And whenever there is a beginning and an ending, I am seeing the world from a finite perspective.

But how is the form of the word “chair” Self?

Let’s look at the word “Self”. When I ask people the question, “What is self? What is the form of self?”, they answer: “body, two legs, two arms, head, male, female, mind, spirit, consciousness, sum total of a person’s experiences, personality”, etc. Ask them how “self” got here, and they are forced to admit that they came from (their form is) their father and mother. Thus

SELF
S: living, breathing, working, loving, learning, etc. (infinite)
F: male/female = One

When I see you or Mr. Jones, I am seeing the unity of father (male) and mother (female). And since, I, too, am the unity of my father (male) and mother (female), when I see you or Mr. Jones, I am seeing a reflection of my Self = male and female united as One.

Now, “Before the chair (form) existed, it was designed (structured) based on a concept/thought (word(s)) that sprang from SELF having a purpose (will) - needing to sit elevated above the ground. So the chair (form) is an external reflection of SELF willing the CREATIVE process - will, word, structure, form.”

So substance vibrates form in the creative process. Thus, the form of a chair is the effect/result of someone’s consciousness which is the cause. And when I see someone, I see a reflection of Self. Thus, when I see a chair, I am seeing Self’s consciousness. Therefore,

CHAIR:
S: sitting, resting, reclining, supporting, standing, etc.
F: Self

Now I am seeing the world as a reflection of Self which is Oneness. When I do not see a separation of forms, there is no limit, there is no beginning or ending. When there is no beginning or ending, I am seeing the world from an infinite perspective of Self.

So now we can calculate – my consciousness is either finite/duality (external form), or it is infinite/oneness (internal substance).

Now, to know where I am in consciousness, I need a map. What is the map of consciousness? It is the TREE OF LIFE. (see image above).

At the top of the tree is the AUSAR level. It is the vibrational state of the Creator/Oneness where energy reflects absolute laws and principles that cause and effect.

At the bottom of the tree is the SAHU level. It is the vibrational state of Duality where energy is experienced as transitory sensations - emotions, desires, passions – which have a beginning and ending, and are thus finite. This vibrational state perceives absolute laws and principles only in the external form which it sees as multiplicity. Because of this, SAHU consciousness makes attachments (when there is only one form = Self there is nothing to attach to), and projects division which leads to conflict. Moving up the tree removes divisions and erases conflicts until at the top, there is only Oneness . . . .

With the map, I can find out where I am and where I am going (ORIENTATE). If I find I am experiencing conflict and I want a solution to the conflict, I need to move up the tree to wisdom and then to cause and effect. So I need to move from Duality to Oneness. How do I do this? I must take the definition of the words that I am using (that is revealing my consciousness in duality), and transition to an infinition that reflects absolute laws and principles and internalize the infinition in order to apply them. In doing so, I will change my reality by changing my perception of Self and projecting the Oneness (unifying) vibration that will effect/result in Self infinitely growing instead of the Duality vibration dividing and destroying self.

Now, let’s say I ask, “Where are you in spirituality?” and the person replies, “I believe in God”. We “believe” something when we think it is true but really don’t know (lack) the answer (understanding). We substitute belief for knowing and understanding.

BELIEVE
S: unknowing, considering, supposing, lacking
F: person, answer, knowledge, understanding

GOD
S: all-knowing, all-powering
F: spirit, Allah, Jehovah, etc.

So we can calculate that the person believes (doesn’t know) and is in SAHU. The person has a concept of “GOD”, that is not Self, thus “GOD” is outside of Self which implies Duality. Again, the person is in SAHU. Moreover, the person’s concept of GOD as all-knowing, all-powerful implies that it is finite. To know everything and to have all the power implies that it can be measured. To measure something, there must be a beginning and an end which are limits.

To Orientate, this person would have to make a definition to infinition transition of the words Believe and God. How does one make a definition to infinition transition?

First, look at the substance of the word and find out what substance(s) you are holding on to. Then ask yourself, “is this finite or infinite?” If you don’t know, ask yourself, “If all there is is Self (me), would/could I do this to myself? If I am infinite, does this make sense?”

Using the example of “believe” above, take the substance “lacking”. If all there is is me and I am infinite, can I lack anything? No. Can I not “know” myself or know something that is not “Self”? No.

Next, look at nature for an example/manifestation of absolute laws and principles. Does a tree “believe” in God? No. A tree grows. When it rains, its roots drink in the water. When the wind blows, its roots hold it in place while its branches and leaves sway. The tree just does its purpose and grows.

Instead of believing in God, this person needs to be One with the tree – know its purpose and grow. Now the person knows his/her absolute Orientation. S/he has the map (Tree of Life), knows her/his location (in SAHU, Duality), knows where s/he is going (Knowledge of Self/AB Maat to AUSAR, Oneness) and what to do (stop believing in God and know my purpose and grow).

So, ORIENTATION is

Mapping where you are and where you are going,
By calculating
Your perception

ABSOLUTE ORIENTATION is

Mapping where you are and where you are going on the Tree of Life
By calculating whether
Your perception of Self is external/finite/Duality or internal/infinite/Oneness


2. When should a person orientate? Is this an ongoing thing, or something to do when you experience a bad moment?

That is based on a person’s purpose. If my purpose is to grow and to infinitely involve, then I am going to Orientate (to the Oneness) infinitely. If I don’t, then I am in Duality, and if I am in Duality, my perception of my Self is that I have a beginning and an ending. If I have an ending, then I am vibrating my own death . . . . Once a person is introduced/intuned to Orientation, it is their choice – infinite involution or death.

Here’s an example – let’s say you are at the supermarket and you are not Orientating to the Oneness – you don’t know where you are on the Tree of Life, where you are going, and what steps to take, or how to move. So, instead of orientating to the Ausar/Oneness perception, you submit to the SAHU/ duality consciousness that is ruled by emotions, passions, desires. So now, these emotions, passions and desires which are manipulated by advertising, are telling you to get a six pack of beer, a pizza, some chips or pretzels, and some ice cream – all of which was created (like the chair) from your SAHU consciousness which can only divide and destroy you. So you choose food that kills you unconscious of your absolute purpose to grow. Now, SAHU consciousness, not seeing the Oneness, sees only the form separated – “I’m just shopping, I’m just eating” or worse, “Everyone must die anyway, so why not satisfy my sensations?” Did something bad happen? No, not yet. However, keep seeing thinking and vibrating at the SAHU level and something bad will eventually take “form” – some sickness, illness, conflict, etc. If you wait until diabetes, a stroke, a heart attack, etc to Orientate, by then absolute laws and principles are already manifesting, and it’s too late. So why wait until something bad happens? When you Orientate, you in/experience the world from the Ausar/creator realm. And when you know yourself as the creator creating your experiences, you wouldn’t create the bad moment, would you? You only create the bad moment because you are not Orientated . . . . .

3. What measurements should one use to know they are making progress? I suspect orientation is not just about ‘feeling’ better. What should a person use as their guide?

That is a functional question! There are steps that correspond to each of the nine spheres on the Tree of Life. One progresses by moving from one step to the next. Ausar Lumukanda Maguzawa revealed to me nine steps to Sphere #4 AB Maat. I am on Step #5.

NINE STEPS TO AB MAAT

Step 9: To understand patience, you must accept your mission as ABSOLUTE (Sphere #4)

Step 8: To understand Wisdom, you must take absolute responsibility for your actions (Sphere #4)

Step 7: In order to take full responsibility for your actions, you must KNOW YOURSELF (Sphere #4)

Step 6: In order to KNOW YOURSELF you must DENY YOURSELF (Sphere #4, #6)

Step 5: To DENY YOURSELF you must master your lower triangle (SAHU) of your psyche (Sphere #6)

Step 4: To master your lower triangle of your psyche you must SUBSCRIBE AND BROADCAST your ABSOLUTE INTENTIONS (Spheres #6, #7)

Step 3: In order to SUBSCRIBE and BROADCAST to your ABSOLUTE INTENTIONS you must align your physical interfaces into "one" healthy SYSTEM (Sphere #7)

Step 2: In order to align your PHYSICAL INTERFACES into "one" healthy SYSTEM, you must control the physical inputs as to LIFENOSE the physical ailment (Sphere #7)

THEREFORE THE PATHWAY TOWARDS HIGHER SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT STARTS WITH NUTRITION (Spheres #, #8, #9)

What would you recommend for someone who is new to the orientation thing?

Apply, apply, apply . . . . Look at the words you are using and see if they are reflecting duality or oneness. And of course, ask questions on the AWI blogsite!

HOW DO YOU SEE/EXPERIENCE REALITY?

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ORIENTATION is a process of transforming consciousness from seeing the world of forms, structures and duality definitions to knowing self and in/experiencing the world as ONE reflection of SELF/CREATOR.

Look at a chair. It is a reflection of SELF/CREATOR. Before the chair (form) existed, it was designed (structured) based on a concept/thought (word(s)) that sprang from SELF having a purpose (will) - needing to sit elevated above the ground. So the chair (form) is an external reflection of SELF willing the CREATIVE process - will, word, structure, form.

Likewise, YOU the reader, are the chair. YOU are a reflection of the CREATOR. YOU ARE THE CREATOR. Take for example, your body. Your flesh, your bones, your blood- it is made of the same "ingredients" as the earth. That is why we eat - we metabolize the substance of the earth to grow.

Now, your body, just as the earth, was fluid before it manifested as earth. You were formed in/from fluids in your Mama's womb. Your body's organs, blood, etc is mostly water, just as the earth is mostly water.

Now, the process of forming you (form) in the mother's womb (structure) could not take place if Mama wasn't breathing air (word). Moreover, if you weren't breathing, would there be a you?

And of course, even if you had air (word), water (structure) and earth (form), without the fire within the body, you still wouldn't be you. When your temperature (fire) drops below a certain level, the body "freezes" and it's systems shut down. On the other hand, if the temperature (fire) gets to high, the body burns and it's systems don't function.

Therefore, YOU are a reflection of the creative process - will (fire), word (air), structure (water) and form (earth). Now ask yourself - does fire have a birthdate? When was air born? How old is water? As an Aboriginal, you are the reflection of the creative process. Thus, Aboriginal people are infinite - they have no beginning nor ending. Aboriginal people have always been here and will always be here.

Now, will (fire), word (air), structure (water) and form (earth) are vibrational states of one energy which is the Creator. Look at fire and water - fire is hot, air is cool. Look at water and earth. Water is soft, earth is hard. Hot and cold are vibrational states of one energy. Soft and hard are vibrational states of one energy. Heat and cold, hard and soft, male and female - all so called "opposites" are only vibrational states of one energy.

Think about when you are hungry, when you are sleepy, when you are awake, etc. Are you three separate objects? No, YOU are one object/energy vibrating in three different vibrational states.

So YOU - your body/form - is a manifestation of the creative process. It is the external form of the internal consciousness of the Creator and it is infinite. YOU are also a reflection of the Oneness of so-called "opposites". You wouldn't be here were it not for your father and mother, male and female. So when I see you, I am seeing the unity of male and female.

Now, look at nature. A cloud passes, it rains. Some of the rain is stored in puddles, pools, lakes, seas, etc. Some of the rain is absorbed by the earth. Plants drink the rain through its roots and use it to grow. The rain is then evaporated from the puddles, pools, plants, etc and it rises and forms clouds and then goes through the process again, over and over. Absorbing and projecting.

Look a tree. It produces a fruit containing a seed which drops to the ground and is absorbed. The seed absorbs water and earth and grows (projects) itself, producing more fruit with seed, repeating the process, again and again. So each tree is just an infinite reflection/reproduction of one energy that is infinitely absorbing and projecting.

Now look at YOU. Your heart and muscles expand and contract. You inhale and exhale. Your mouth opens and closes. You drink and urinate. You eat and defecate. You hear words then you speak words. YOU become one with your male/female reflection and reproduce a child that will go through the same process, infinitely reproducing - SELF.

Thus, YOU are an infinite reflection of SELF/CREATOR infinitely absorbing and projecting. Whaterever you see, hear, taste, touch, smell - is YOU. YOU are absorbing what YOU are projecting. See this, knowing this, experiencing this, is ORIENTATION.

The question is: How does SELF ORIENTATE? What are the steps? What is reality like when I see behind the form and structure to the will and word that Unites the Universe?

Question RE: Substance and Form

Greetings AWI Family,

I received the following question form a Reflection and below is my answer.

I understand substance and form when you are dealing with tangible objects such as mop (s;washing, waxing, dusting, hitting, -- f: stick, handle, sponge, etc), but how is this method applied to intangible things? Is Substance (thoughts/thinking) and Form (feelings/actions)?for example --

Rushed:
(substance): last minute, not enough time, need to catch up, not where supposed to be, missing out if late, etc --
(form): fast movement, hurried actions, missed steps, anxiety

This is the method I am currently using. Please let me know if I'm doing this right.

Take care, . . . . .

Answer:

Yes, you have the substance and form of external words like mop. When you qualify an intangible or what we call an INTERNAL word, we use the same format. Take love for example. SAHU reflections will answer the question according to their level of consciousness which is in Duality. Thus it will be based on an accepted definition.

LOVE:
s:hugging, kissing, caring, nurturing, feeding, listening, talking, considering, sexing, devoting, teaching, fighting, cooking, reproducing, etc
f: self, husband, wife, mother, father, car, song, book, vacation spot, meal, sex, etc

The form is who or what is doing and/or receiving the action. The substance of an internal word is an action verb ending in "ing". It is the function of the word, or put another way, what the word causes you to do. Love causes me to hug and kiss, and listen . . . . etc. So if we look at the word "rush"

RUSH:
s:quickening, accelerating, overlooking,
f: person, process

Let's try another word - "NEED"

NEED
s:requiring, necessitating, projecting
f: person, concept

and

GROW
s:functioning, learning, substantiating
f: objects

Understand? Does this help?
Siphiwe

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CHAMPION TEST & RESPONSIBILITY

Greetings AWI Family,

I have been absorbing and projecting lessons about what it takes to be a champion and responsibility. Yesterday I was tested.

I had to pack, move and clean a 3rd floor apartment by myself. It was a mess - clothes, papers, cd's and dvd's everywhere, dishes left out with food rotting on them - it was disgusting. Bathroom was worse. So I went to start in the bedroom.

I wasn't Orientated when I started - my consciousness was that this was a task/job that I wanted to just finish as quickly as possible, know what I mean? As I rushed to stuff clothers in bags, I thought of the gigantic mess I had yet to pack and having to move everything three florrs to the basement, and all the cleaning. I was QUANTIFYING what I was experienceing/facing. Then I heard the Ancestors say, "WHAT ELSE DO YOU HAVE TO DO. YOU HAVE WHAT YOU NEED, THERE'S NO WHERE YOU HAVE TO GO, THIS IS YOUR LESSON. SUBMIT!"

So I submitted. No longer rushing or looking to the work ahead, I start moving, step by step. The work started flowing . . . .

As I continued to work, however, I thought, "This is going to take awhile. I can't do it all by myself TODAY. I'll pack and move everything today and do the cleaning tomorrow before its time to show the apartment. That's good enough - after all, I have to carry all this stuff myself and its HEAVY (see substance and form below).

Then I heard the Ancestors say, "BE A CHAMPION, DON'T QUIT UNTIL APARTMENT IS SPARKLING. "

So instead of quitting in the afternoon, I submitted and accepted my purpose. Once I did this, I started Orientating and Introspecting. How did I create this experience? The tenant who left the apartment is a reflection of mySelf. Why did I leave like this?

I thought about how my reflection arrived at AWI. After being evicted my reflection made a sincere cry to the universe for help. Now my reflection was in the same situation, needing to find another place to live quickly. The same lesson again. Obviously my reflection did not see the substance of his in/experience and what he was projecting that created it. However, since this experience was just a reflection of Self, it was my lesson. What substance of my in/experience am I not seeing? What am I projecting that will push me away from AWI? This question bothered me . . . . I have been repeating lessons, too, only I know the substance of why I am here (to grow), but I keep looking at form of being here and using my quantifying mechanism instead of using my absolute, innate learning mechanisms. I need to stop doing this and keep applying absolute learning (more on that later). Introspecting on this, I started to feel a tightness in my chest.

So while I was working, SAHU sensations tried to get me to contract. Porno dvd covers tried to get me . . . .I took responsibility for my VISUAL NUTRITION INPUT and said, "No thank you!" and put them in a pile without indulging.

Working alone caused me to reflect on previous apartments I had, which in turn caused me to think about the relationships I had in them. I started to feel a little lonely but I recognized that contract and quickly Orientated - no way was I gonna lower my vibration from champion to loser! However, accepting where I was/season of growth, I had to accept vulnerability - and this caused my chest to feel "tight" - like I had a lump in my throat, only a little lower in my upper chest. It makes my voice "shaky" when I talk. I've been experiencing this more frequently over the past few weeks. I am "sensing" something and I know it is because I am not BROADCASTING.

By 5:00 pm - seven hours after I started - I had made the apartment sparkle. I had passed my CHAMPION test, and already the universe was pushing the next test. What was/is this causing my tight chest? What do I need to broadcast?

It came out later speaking to another reflection: I AM SICK AND TIRED OF IN/EXPERIENCING THE WORLD AS A BOY! NOW IS THE SEASON FOR MANHOOD AND RESPONSIBILITY!

HEAVY
substance: weighing
form: object(s)

WEIGHING
s: measuring
f: object, concept

MEASURING
s: comparing
f: object, concept 1 (object), concept 2 (accepted standard)

COMPARING
s: perceiving
f: object, concept

PERCEIVING
s: projecting
f: concept

PROJECTING
s: activating
f: concept

ACTIVATING
s: sensing
f: object(person)

TAKING RESPONSIBILITY

Greetings AWI Family,

I am absorbing and projecting the lesson: "take responsibility". I know that words project substance that create our experiences, whether we are conscious of that substance or not. So I must be conscious of the substance of the lesson I am projecting. I must have substantial knowledge of responsibility, otherwise I won't recognize the lesson when I absorb it, and I will keep repeating it.

What is responsibility? Here is my definition:

RESPONSIBLE: performing functionally according to absolute purpose; recognizing when something is needed and what is needed and following the steps to acquire and apply what is needed so that the condition of need no longer exists.

Before matriculating to AWI, my definition was what I accepted from the dictionary:
expected or obliged to account; answerable, accountable; involving obligation or duties; able to distinguish between right and wrong and to think and to act rationally; dependable and reliable.

I was raised to accept the Christian concepts of right and wrong, and experience of my accepted definition of right and wrong (rewards and opportunities for acting "right"; punishment and suffering for acting "wrong") caused me to act "right". You know, the Ten Commandments - don't lie, cheat, steal, covet thy neighbors wife - those are the "biggies". Don't hurt people or animals, and help people when you can (when it is convenient). So in this sense, I felt I was acting responsibly.

However, like most people, I found that accepting obligation or duties was not fun. Obligation and duties require work. Who wants to work? Especially melaninated beings in the west - after the slavery experience of being worked from sun up to sun down without pay and still living in a system where most of us work for the mankind beast to pay rent and put food on the table - who really wants to be responsible? Many people are forced to be responsible, but who really wants to be responsible?

In childhood, sometimes I was told to wash dishes, especially after they had been sitting in the sink for awhile and the water in the sink was nasty. I didn't have fun washing dishes, and if I left a piece of food on a plate, or there was a Kool-aid stain still in a cup, I would get yelled at. It was my responsibility to take out the stinking garbage, too! It smelled bad and it was heavy, and during the winter, I had to go out in the cold. I always got yelled at to take out the garbage! On Saturday mornings, I was forced to do chores before going outside to play - vacuum, clean my room, wash clothes, clean bird cage, clean dog shit in utility room, etc. At other times, my parents or teachers would say, "Who did this?" when something was broken. Whoever was "responsible" for breaking the object or doing something that upset the grown-ups would get punished. I was never nurtured to learn how to fix what was broken, either. So from childhood I learned that being responsible obligated you to do work that nobody else wanted to do, was no fun, was stinky and nasty, and would get you in trouble and yelled at if you made a mistake. So like most people, when it came to this kind of responsibility, I avoided it whenever possible. (While picking up trash on the sidewalk and sweeping hallways today, I considered most of the urban areas where I have lived with "my people" - garbage in the streets, stinky, nasty homes that are falling apart and need to be fixed, no parks or places for children to have fun, nobody wanting to take responsibility. . . .)

So when I entered adulthood, I was projecting Christian moral responsibility and avoiding obligation/duty/work responsiblity - and I was drawn to the Rastafari Movement. "The mankind beast system is falling and is going to be replaced by a new system, so get out of it before it is completely burned by fire, no need to work in it or learn it, and we are going to leave the west and return to Mama Africa as prophets, priests and kings (and not industrial engineers and manufacturers) anyway, so what's the point of doing anything here only to leave it to be destroyed? I'll be responsible for learning and building after I repatriate. My only responsibility was leaving the west", so I thought. Anyway, that's another story . . . . .

Now, however, the ancestors are showing me, I must TAKE RESPONSIBILITY AND SUBMIT TO MY ABSOLUTE PURPOSE IN ORDER TO ACTIVATE THE HEART OF MY ANCESTRAL CHAMPIONS INSIDE ME!

Take responsibility for what? What is responsibility? Here's an absolute example:

No one teaches a baby after it leaves the womb how to cry out for its mother's breast and suck . . . . The ancestral knowledge in the baby's genetic memory was activated by the baby's senses . . . . which communicated internally with Self, "I need". This need became the baby's will/purpose which, just as it was communicated internally, had to be communicated externally. So the ancestral knowledge, when activated, caused an internal movement of the will which in turn caused the baby to use its muscles (internal) to move - in this case, its vocal cords. This internal movement created a word- sound that caused an external movement, which was a vibration that carried the substance of the ancestral knowledge in the baby's genetic memory. The vibration was heard by Mama and absorbed, activating the same ancestral knowledge inside of her that she passed to her baby in the womb, which in turn caused an internal movement of the will that further caused Mama to use her muscles (internal) to move - in this case, her leg muscles. Mama's internal movement created an external movement, which brought her to nurse the baby.

So automatically, baby and mother communicated the substance of the ancestral knowledge of what they need to do (to grow), and that knowledge was substantiated when the baby felt the nipple, sucked it, and tasted milk. The baby was being responsible when it projected, in the form of crying, the ancestal knowledge that was activated internally when the baby's senses absorbed where it was. Likewise, Mama was responsible when, after she heard her baby crying and absorbed the substance of the ancestral knowledge that was projected and was now activated internally, submitted and nursed the baby. Both automatically knew their purpose and what to do.

Unlike a baby, however, an adult has this thing called "freewill". An adult has accepted and stored concepts that are not absolute and override the anestral knowledge that is communicated within.

For example, Self senses/observes smoking cigarettes. Self smells the cigarette (it smells bad), Self mimics smoking and inhales/absorbs cigarette, and Self starts coughing (ancestral knowledge projection: get this shit out of Self)! Self learned not to inhale cigarette smoke. However, Self accepted a concept that smoking is "cool", smoking is "fun". Smoking gets you accepted (peer pressure). So Self uses freewill to override Self's absolute learning/purpose and makes smoking into a habit. Then one day, all the smoke Self absorbed is projected as lung cancer. Just as the ancestral knowledge said, "get this smoke out of me", now the ancestral knowledge is saying, "get this smoke that is now in the form of a tumor our of me!" Just as Self submitted to freewill to override absolute learning/purpose when it first inhaled, Self might submit to freewill and keep smoking even after getting lung cancer, too!

Was Self responsible? No. Why? Because Self did not submit and perform the ancestral knowledge that was projected.

So what is responsibility? At AWI, I learned that every word is a "capacitor" with a substance and form. For example, look at the word "chair". The form of a chair is : four legs, a seat, a back, arm rests, etc. The substance of a chair is its purpose/function - what it is used for: sitting, resting, reclining, standing, supporting, etc. So now, to know what responsibility is, I need to know its substance and form. From the baby/Mama example above:

Responsibility:
substance: knowing, doing (performing)
form: baby, mama (objects), ancestral knowledge, actions (concepts)

Perfoming:
substance: following
form: object, steps (concepts)

So responsibility is using the senses to absorb substance and activate ancestral knowledge within Self's genetic memory which projects a response. This is how I learm/know what needs to be done . When Self applies that knowledge by moving/performing/following the step(s) of what to do, then Self is acting responsibly.

There's a little more to this lesson, however. There are times when my freewill wants to submit to the ancestral knowledge that is projected, and yet I still don't. For example, I might see/absorb that power keeps going out in my house, and ancestral knowledge projects that I need to fix it. My freewill wants to get it fixed, too. However, I don't get it fixed. Why? What stops me?

I know it needs to be fixed, but I don't know how to fix it. Moreover, I have accepted the concept that electricity is "dangerous". I remember being shocked. I also remember stories and movies of people being electrocuted. So now, the thought of looking at and observing the electrical system in my house causes me "fear" of being shocked or electricuted. Or, maybe I am not afraid of being electricuted, but I am afraid of failing to do it "right" and burning down my house. In either case, fear has stopped me from fixing it. (Fear of failure is major reason why I avoid responsibility.)

Let's say, however, that I do know how to fix it, but with working two jobs, I just don't feel like using my weekends to work on fixing my electrical system. Afterall, all work and know rest/relaxation, is not healthy, either. Moreover, the children have their weekend activities that require my attention; the wife wants some attention, too. In this case, entropy and energy are the culprits stopping me. There are just too many things that demand my attention and I don't have the energy to do them all.

So why not just hire an electrician? That is a solution if I can afford it. If the job is going to cost $8,000 and I don't have it, then that means having to work a lot of over-time. Again, entropy and energy are the culprits stopping me.

So now the question is, take responsibility for what? Answer: Self

When I Orientate, I see and understand the Oneness. There is only Self. And Self's purpose is infinite involution - to grow. I am infinitely absorbing and projecting, so the substance of what I am projecting is what I am absorbing through my senses and it is based on my perception of self. If I see garbage in the street around me, it is because I am projecting garbage. If my perception of self is Duality, then it is someone else's responsibility to pick it up (whoever put it there or the city, etc.) If my perception of Self is Oneness, then it is Self's responsibility. If I don't care (take responsibility), that is because I don't care (take responsibility) about myself. Since, however, I am an aboriginal being, I share in the three attributes of the absolute: responsibility, openeness, and reproducibility. I can't run from responsibility because it is in my genetic memory. If I don't care about myself and take responsibility, I am projecting lessons to teach me to take responsibility. The universe will continue to "force" me into taking responsibility by taking from me what I am not being responsible for (neglecting, not observing), until I submit to my absolute purpose. So, by making it my purpose to observe what is around me, and knowing who I am, ancestral knowledge will project to me what needs to be done. When it is done, the lesson is learned and the wisdom is gained, so I no longer project and absorb that lesson, but rather that wisdom. Self becomes "lighter". In this way, I raise my vibration and I grow.

So this is where I am at - Orientating and understanding the substance of responsibility and what prevents me from taking responsibility.

I welcome comments from my reflections so that I can learn and grow.

INFINITE NEED FOR MOTHERS, DAUGHTERS, SISTERS, AND WIVES

Greetings AWI Family,

Yesterday, I spoke with my mother. She was talking about "when she dies . . . . . at my funeral . . . . " I said to myself, I am absorbing this because I am projecting it, and I asked myself, "Why am I projecting this? What is my lesson?" The day before, I told a Divine Priest and Healer that I was afraid, that something was holding me back from knowing myself and doing my purpose/mission in life. . . . How was this connected?

So I answered my mother saying that her body was only physical form, that "she" however was, is, and will always be an invisible "substance" that is infinitely manifesting/creating form after form after form. I used the example of a mango tree to show her that the mango that falls to the ground (funeral) does so only to release its seed and grow into another involution producing another mango tree and another mango (form) and that this process is infinite. So I showed her that at her so called "funeral", she won't be "dead" as in no longer with me - her substance is infinite. She is only changing forms! Since I know this - that she was, is and always will be "with me", I won't "miss" her and there is no need for me to be "sad" at her "funeral".

So this morning during "Affirmations", I said to myself, "I am infinite" and I saw the Tree of Life and that my Duality image of Self as an "Individual" in this body is just form - it passes just as the mango disintegrates. It is the seed in the mango that when planted, manifests the infinite involution of the substance of the mango tree. I am the substance of the Creator manifested through involutions of Ancestors . . . . That substance in me produces seed which must be planted (male and female = ONE). With knowledge of self, this seed, and a wife, I infinitely involve! This is my purpose, PLANT MY SEED (male and female = ONE) TO INFINITELY INVOLVE. THIS IS WHY I NEED A WIFE(S) TO REPRODUCE AND RAISE CHILDREN. THE AUSAR ANCESTORS (SELF) WILL GUIDE ME WHEN I AM OPEN AND SUBMIT!

I KNOW MY WIFE(S) IS PREPARING AT THIS VERY MOMENT AND WE WILL COME TOGETHER IN SEASON.

And I also see now that mothers, daughters, sisters, wives - women - are not burdens, enemies, and objects. My daughter is Self and she will grow into a woman and become a wife so that Self can reproduce and infintely involve. So this is why I love, feed, nurture and protect my daughter! She is Self. She is what I need for Divine Creation!