Out of Oneness comes a Negro

The substance of a negro is deep rooted and easy to get caught up in. I myself have inspirienced the negro to much in one day. I started out talking with myself and getting upset because I wasn't saying what I wanted to "hear." I wasn't listening, I was blinded by attachment, my defense mechanism had me by the throat and I was drowning in duality. When I broadcasted to myself, I was able to orientate, and see the deeply rooted duality in me that was endoctrinated though the concepts of Christianity, Capitolism, wholeness, and mathematics.

But as if that wasn't enough to orientate to get into learning and introspect on, I found myself displaying another negro substances, that resulted in embarrassment and shame. As I was looking for a way to not be responsible for my actions, a major process of a negro, I popped into orientation during this display of substance, I saw how I was projecting negrodom.

I had to laugh. I was trying to hide, lie and decieve myself. I called into fruition the lesson of knowing the substance of a negro substantially not in form. We low and behold the substance of a negro has been right above my nose, in my head, all the while. I kept expecting to see it in my reflections not myself. Duality? Yes. How is that, when there is nothing other than myself. I am the infinite.

So, I have been on a negro rollercoster ride observing the following substances of a negro: the dialog in my head, go back and forth on how I'm being treated wrong, reasoning why I shouldn't be doing what I should be doing/and why I should be doing what I shouldn't be doing, expecting accolades for the work I've been doing with no open mindedness to be pushed higher, expecting to get away with things unsee and unheard, thinking I won't be found out, fronting like everything is fine, when in all actuallity I am catabolizing, and afraid to ask for help, for fear of shattering my image, looking for someone to tell me what to do, as not to take responsiblity if something goes wrong, worring about what my reflections are doing because I am attached and don't want to exposed how attached I really am.

I must stay aware that I am projecting my lessons, absorb them orientate, get into learning, and go through introspection in the one-ness. This will make me less fearful of the products I create. So, my focus will continue to be on, orientation. In order to come out of the negro trans/mindset I do know that I must stay in the one-ness. That way, I will be able to learn and grown without the affects of duality haunting me when I receive my product.